Heart Left Open: Collected Poems 2004 -2008
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In my evening
I am folding a package of palm leaves
so that in your morning
you can unfold them and find the sun .
MOVING HANDS ABOVE SOMEONE BELOVED
It is a craft we learned in that school:
moving hands above someone beloved
feeling the energy rise from them and
(instead of letting it gather, to become either desire or movement)
spreading it softly through the body-aura
as combing hair spreads the oil of the skin to all of the long strands.
Done right it lets the recipient sleep, but sleep refilled, untangled,
and wake alive and glad -
so they taught us in that school where we learned this craft.
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Heart Left Open - Birrell Walsh
Heart Left Open
Collected Poems
2004 -2008
by Birrell Walsh
Here is a toast
to those who open our hearts.
Birrell Walsh
birrell@well.com and greymanx@yahoo.co,
1-415-753-2572
Copyright 2004-2008 By Birrell Walsh
All Rights Reserved
Cover Photo Copyright 2006
By Radmila Krieger
All Rights Reserved
Author Photo Copyright 2007
By Frederick Douglass Perry
All Rights Reserved
eISBN: 978-1-25719-285-4
Flow Felt, Answering Need
June 22, 2004
Hands raised soft
seeming casual
to send,
Hands resting on
painful bodies
lightly.
Flow felt, answering need
of beings with
Amitabha's light
I Don't Believe In This Stuff,
She Said
June 23, 2004
I don't believe in this stuff,
she said.
I know how that is,
said I
And rested my hand on her back. She relaxed
with a great long audible sigh.
He Doesn't Know I Know He Has AIDS
June 23, 2004
He has AIDS
But because his AIDS is secret
He doesn't know I know he has AIDS
He and I have often conflicted -
words and power, role-in-the-play.
This is a demonstration day
for energy-healing: a different play,
ten minutes to give a taste
I put my hands on his shoulders: so tight.
Knead them, let them go.
Scan him byosan-reiku ho*
My hand falls to his heart -
Oh, such despair!
Let the hand rest there,
and on his back.
Scan again. The hara
dan tien, second chakra:
driving/driven desire,
a tight-hot furnace.
Well, I know that one.
I apologize. Um,
I say,
this may be a little intimate,"
and reach in, cradle the
driving tired chakra
and let Mr. Reiki flow out,
impersonal, colorless, kind.
He and I are now in
an intimacy so deep
that most lovers never
feel its ocean flow.
Go, Mr. Reiki,
let your flows flow.
Enough, now. Time is over.
Slow, pulsing WITHapart, withapart, withAPART,
saying good bye
I knead his shoulders again
and return to the poor house
of a solitary body.
*http://www.geocities.com/fascin8or/d_byosen.html
I've Gone And Given Reiki To My Wife
June 23, 2004
I got One from a Magician
Two from a space-musician
And some mantras and some symbols from them too
And that would have been fine
But I got my third online
And now, St. Mikao, what shall I do?
CHORUS:
Oh the woman that I wedded
is hard- and level-headed
And she doesn't go where New Age stuff is rife.
But I do, and I'll tell you
that I'm in deep woo-woo
for I've gone and given Reiki to my wife.
I knew Priscilla Stuckey
in which I was most lucky
and she taught me 'bout initiating pets
It made Fionn the cat-sans-pity
into a sei-hei-kitty,
And Bri the dog's as beaming as it gets.
CHORUS
My wife's indeed a skeptic
and she would get dyspeptic
if I tried to draw some symbols on her hand
But I thought, "Hey, what's the harm
if I use a distant charm
like them folks at Grassrootsreiki and their band?"
CHORUS
I just sat me down in town and thought
all the symbols that I ought
to make my loving spouse a first degree
And when she touched me on my heart
with her unknown new found art
she healed, and made a sobbing fool of me.
CHORUS
It works,
I thought and then
gave her HON SHA ZE SHO NEN
and she was healing folks across the road.
So I gave her DAI KO MYO,
and she's passing on the glow
but you mustn't ever tell
how come she makes folks well -
she would change me to a very healthy toad.
Oh the woman that I wedded
is hard- and level-headed
And she doesn't go where New Age stuff is rife.
And I hope you'll help conceal her
conversion to a healer
for I've gone and given Reiki to my wife.
The Thought Behind The Pain
June 24, 2004
They brought him in
for slashing himself
with a great long knife
he had made himself.
Needs healing.
Yep.
We should take away his knife.
Yes. And he'll make another.
"Can we take away the urge,
the pain,
the thought behind the pain,
the fear behind the thought?"
Not The Peaceful Flow
June 25, 2004
The energy
leaps quite unbidden
between our bodies.
not the peaceful flow
of a healer's hands -
No, sudden, connective
flowing from midline
to midline, making us one being
across at first a few feet
and now across the Atlantic
And for all I am angry at you
I could no more leave you
then I could leave my liver
or my soul.
The New Initiate Lays Hands
June 26, 2004
Thinking
Can this work?
the new initiate lays hands
on back and heart.
And in the recipient
warmth blooms
not in the chest
but in the back of the head.
Good old
reliably unpredictable Reiki.
Hey Now I Weave A Little Travel Lamp
June 30, 2004
Hey now I weave a little travel lamp
of reiki, of energy that is not me
and set it in the future, hanging from a tree
so that one evening, walking in the damp
you will be guided, won't stumble, will not fall
and the light will see you home and all
as I would do, if we were still friends.
Let this energy-that-is-not-me go with and make
amends.
Warmth Penetrates Gently
June 30, 2004
Hands rested on the belly
warmth penetrates gently
and as warm spring rain
enters cold winter earth
softening softening
so Reiki reaches in
to the stress-filled gut
softening softening
Is it not mercy?
Dissolved In Her, And I Flow After
July 1, 2004
Tell me, teacher,
what the ethics would be
if I used Reiki
to make a hand and a long arm
and reached across
the cold grey sea
and touched the back of one I love
not one I am supposed to love
but one I most surely do love
One, of course I'm thinking of
And left my hand upon her back
as she rises in the summer dawn
to put her meditations on
most chastely there upon her back
and not follow down the track
of her mountain-spine...
But left my Reiki hand upon her skin
and then went with it as it went in
until the reiki and the hand
ran into her, stream into sand,
dissolved in her, and I flow after
until you hear me in her laughter.
Tell me, teacher, what the fact is -
would this be good reiki practice?
I Have Wrestled With Jealousy
July 1, 2004
I have wrestled with jealousy -
a fair fight. I lost.
And ridden by jealousy
drove away a well-loved friend,
a well befriended lover,
my loving-friend wellness
I drove away because I
could not could not could not
allow the one I loved
to love another
even though she already did
and loved me none the less.
Let us hope our God is
not a jealous god.
Too many times I have closed
the doors of my heart to the
one I have loved,
and not admitting that I could
never stop loving,
have taken myself into darkness.
I have a friend who said
with soft old eyes,
"You are one, like me,
who finds yourself to be toxic
to those you love."
Her eyes implied
it is a false finding
but hard to reverse
in the cold court of
self-condemning words.
Even Ravens Mourn
July 1, 2004
The ravens silent
by the bright shining sand beach.
Even ravens mourn.
Feathers are so black,
so shiny; their eyes are deep;
Their beaks curved and good.
But ravens do not
mourn for long. They see beauty,
and their hearts revive;
And strong wings are stretched
to catch the patterns, spread
to ride the space winds.
And throaty voices
comfort all who rest near them
with their lullabies.
May I Sit By You?
July 1, 2004
Just now, reports the world clock
they start the working in Ladakh
and while we wait here for the skies
to split and show us Drukchen's eyes,
may I sit by you?
At Six Pm On July First
July 1, 2004
At six PM on July first
I sat there feeling my heart burst
for all the corruscating reasons
that come in separating seasons
At nine PM , all went wide
with the rising dragon tide
It was not you it was not me
perhaps it was not even he
instead it was a roaring space
so wide it did not have a face
At eleven on the bus
a madwoman bathed in us
and her young face grew less old
hidden in her blanket fold
At midnight you were mostly gone
vanished in the dragon dawn
At six AM you seemed asleep
the woods are lovely, dark and deep
I lay beside a one I hold
in her warmth and her soft gold
and lightnings lingered in the sky
slowly drifting by.
These Heart Seas
July 1, 2004
Are we not all upon
the wide seas of heart?
Is there any place to fly
where we will not land
at last on these same seas,
and all streams run down to them
and all rains of blessing rise from them,
these heart seas?
A Tree Protects A Passerby
July 2, 2004
Between the Issar and the sky
a tree protects a passerby
and ah, I wish the tree were I.
The Flowers Before The Niche
July 2, 2004
On the paper, a report
of a Protestant town
of proper churches,
proper people,
proper ways.
Behind the church
a path leads back to a small niche
where once was worshipped
Hecate. Nowadays
everyone claims to have forgotten
her name, her face,
but the flowers before the niche
are fresh.
Just As They Had Been At First
July 3, 2004
Years after the great storms in the city
when most of the buildings were rebuilt
I was in an old part
and I saw an old man
sitting on a bench, looking
at an old wall
where some youth in That Time
had written in haste and red
KOLKO, KOLKO
TE OBICHAM?
MNOGO, MNOGO
He was silent, unmoving
the paint was old, flaking.
When I thought he had become
one of the vines that grow there
he stood and with a small brush,
a small paint pot, a careful hand
he wrote over the old words
just as they had been at first
tracing them with care
MNOGO, MNOGO
This Was Very Good
July 3, 2004
I asked Mr Drake
what the purpose is
of what you and I have been doing.
He's not given to answering much in words
but it seemed clear enough:
There was a roaring rising up
in/around/about us
and I got as well the feeling
that this was very good
but not easily reduced
to words and a slogan.
I Love Her Isn't That Enough
July 3, 2004
Many years ago we had
a cat named Artemisia.
She was very long, very lean,
very beautiful and beloved.
Eventually her body failed
and she was in more and more pain
and the time came to
put her to sleep.
We took her to the vet
and they shaved her leg
to put a needle in.
but it was not easy -
they had to try three times
to find the vein.
She was going to suffer
more and more if we did not -
but at that moment
I just wanted to scream
no no no no no no
I love her isn't that enough
to keep her with us, in her beauty?
This Is The Path Of Tantra...
July 3, 2004
Yesterday I had a tantrum.
Today I had a tantrum.
Someone short and feline
noticed I have not grown up -
Good cause, I'd say, to have one tomorrow.
This is the path of tantra...
The Smell Of Hay
July 4, 2004
Isn't it strange
how an animal smell can calm us?
The smell of fur, and dust in fur.
For me it was just a whiff
of a horse's breath,
the smell of hay.
Nothing Will Work Unless You Are Cold
July 4, 2004
With great craft
I built miles and miles
of distance to separate us.
It did not work.
Nor did silence, nor did vows.
Nothing will work unless you are cold.
And you are not.
Lily Blossoms Age And Fall
July 4, 2004
Lily blossoms age and fall.
Is nothing left except
timelessness?
Two Eyes Watch In Space
July 5, 2004
Two eyes watch in space
from outside time
into time where we are
together apart together apart
In a way no hard cobra eyes could,
these dark eyes have me,
by their soft intentness
Circe Made Men Pigs
July 5, 2004
Circe made men pigs
and then (Odysseus asked it)
made them men again.
So, I've been touched by the Tall Witch,
her of Aiaia, East-Dancer,
and run the forest
rooting acorns,
digging truffles
from below the hazelnuts
writhing in the fire
of Diamond Sow's desire
and now Circe has touched me again
and I begin to lose my snout
the tusks are falling out.
My shipmates welcome me to men
not knowing what I've lost,
not knowing the cost
of not being with the Dancing One.
That Pleasure Is No Sin
July 5, 2004
I have found
that pleasure is no sin.
But pleasure has many jealous courtiers
who fill pleasure's court with cruel gossip.
In The Aftermath, The Fences Were Down
July 5, 2004
I had always thought of guilt as a sort of fence,
like barbed wire. If I unrolled enough of it,
then I could keep my respectability here by the house,
my spirit in this pasture,
and over there my f-unblushing hunger.
I thought it very penitential - good, for a Catholic child.
Noticing the barbs, I had not noticed the utility.
Until one day a forest fire came
and in the aftermath, the fences were down...
Open And Quite Dry
July 5, 2004
Flat embroidered squares of