Things I Did When No One Was Watching
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Author G. K. Jourdane grew up within a mixed Maori and European culture and endured extreme hardship throughout her life. In Things I Did When No One Was Watching, she offers a compilation of insightful and inspiring short stories based on events that took place during the lowest times of her adult life.
In this series of personal stories, Jourdane shares how she found herself homeless on the outskirts of Melbourne at age fifty when an autoimmune disease struck her down. She lost everything, but her will to survive remained. Each story offers a unique message and speaks to those who are on a personal self-development journey.
In Things I Did When No One Was Watching, she narrates how these events taught her something about mortality and life as it truly is in its raw state. We cannot gloss over it, but we can seek the truth inside the universe of our souls. Once we know our moral birthrights, we are able to face anything.
G. K. Jourdane
G. K. Jourdane was born in 1955 in Auckland, New Zealand, and migrated to Australia in 2001. She found her purpose and passion in writing, art, and coaching. https://www.facebook.com/GKJourdane/timeline www.gkjourdane.com
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Things I Did When No One Was Watching - G. K. Jourdane
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ISBN: 978-1-4525-3117-5 (e)
Balboa Press rev. date: 12/07/2015
Contents
Chapter 1
Forgotten People
Chapter 2
The Butterfly Messenger
Chapter3
New Light through Old Windows
Chapter4
The Mirror
Chapter 5
Signs of Forgiveness
Things I Did
When
No One Was
Watching
G K JOURDANE
I
dedicate this book to my mother and my daughter. Thank you Joy T and Mary Alvarado for your wonderful support in helping me to get my messages out into the world.
Chapter 1
Forgotten People
I t was the early 1990s and just another evening workout at my aerobics class at the local gym. I remember that stormy winter evening well. I headed out of the gym and down the stairs in my leotard, striped leg warmers, and purple headband. What a gorgeous sight I was, heading out of the building into a heavy storm, winds lashing, thunder and lightning having an argument in the sky. I fumbled to put the wet key in the van door. By the time I finally managed to get in, I was soaked to the skin.
I often drove my white work van, which I used for picking up parcels when I didn’t have busy days. It saved me from using the heavy truck for a few random pickups. I was a subcontractor for a freight company. It was hard work, but it kept me fit; twice a week at the gym gave me the extra boost I felt I needed. My body loved movement, especially to music with a beat.
As I headed for home, I could hardly see. The wind and rain lashed at the van, blowing the heavy rain straight into the windscreen. Even with the wipers going full steam, I almost had to pull over. The weather was too fierce to relent. I took it slowly until I was almost home.
There was a woman I was about to meet. I knew her only by sight. She was one of those people you see in your neighbourhood for years without ever speaking a word to him or her. I often noticed her on my drive home from work, and she was always alone except for her tiny dog, which she carried in her arms. She was so thin and looked very old and ill. I dare say she probably wasn’t as old as she appeared to be. I had always noticed that she had an air of deep loss and loneliness about her.
As I drove around a slight curve, the rain still lashing at my van, I saw the tallish dark figure of the woman walking against the night’s wrath. I slowed down, as she appeared to be struggling. She did not have her little dog in her arms. I gathered he had passed away. I drove farther along and then stopped and continued to observe her as she walked past my van. She was struggling to keep on her feet against the storm. I knew something was wrong and feared she would collapse at any moment. I didn’t want to alarm her by getting out of my vehicle in the dark. The streetlights were dim and hazy. With the rain, everything appeared shiny, shadowy, and out of focus.
The situation became predictable, of course. She was on her way to a store, but why at that time of night and in those stormy conditions? I decided to drive to the store, park outside, and wait there to see if I could help her. She approached the store, and I casually got out just before she went in the door.
Hello there. Can I give you a ride home? I saw you walking towards the store, and I’m on my way home from an exercise class. It’s a dreadful night, isn’t it?
I said with cheerful concern.
She spoke to me in a heavy foreign accent that was very hard to understand. I could see that she was not at all afraid, and I felt she had a history of distant heroic turmoil where she had witnessed horrific things. I knew this was not your everyday woman who had been married and had children and watched them grow up and attend university, delighting at seeing them capped and gowned—the kind of woman who went to cafes and ate cupcakes while sipping tea or coffee. This woman was a living history book.
She told me she was all right and not afraid of people, as I had already guessed. However, I didn’t believe she was all right. She looked as if she hadn’t eaten in a month. Her hair was like string, and her clothes looked matted, as if she hadn’t taken them off in months. She had convinced me she was not afraid of people. Later I was to find out why.
She went into the store to buy cat food, and immediately I thought this was her diet. I felt horrified as my intuition began to kick in. She came out of the shop. I asked her again if she would like a lift home. She was stubborn and assured me she would walk. But before she could refuse my offer of a ride home again, I reached down gently and took her bag of cat food from her hand. Then I opened the door of my van and helped her up into the seat. She just looked at me with hardly any expression. Her eyes were glazed over, small and sunken. I could see she was not capable of doing much for herself.
I started the engine and then turned to her. I put her seatbelt around her. She was so thin that I couldn’t get it to fit. It remained loose. Just as well—we had a short drive.
I’m Rikki,
I said. I live just down the road a bit. What’s your name?
Taking my eyes off the road for a second, I glanced at her with a gentle smile on my face.
Margo.
Are you German, Margo?
No, but you are, Rikki.
Well, no, I’m not really. You see, my father was a solider. He fought and killed many Germans in the war, and he named me Rikki as a mark of respect for the men he killed.
She nodded her head slowly.
I have not an ounce of German blood in my veins, Margo. My father came back from the war a damaged and extremely fragmented man. I know much about the lives of soldiers and why they fight uselessly, only to end up a mess.
A lot of men in those days had no choice but to fight for their countries. My father left for the war at sixteen. He’d had no idea what he was doing. He was just a boy. He often told us it was a way of seeing the world, and I assume a lot of young boys who grew up