Identity Confusion And The Church: A Mother's Faith Journey with Her Transgendered Child
By Vera English
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When her adult daughter decided to identify as male, author Vera English experienced profound upheaval in her family and in her life of faith. What started out as a mother's desperate quest for answers turned into a remarkable expedition of faith. Identity Confusion & The Church is a fresh, current, and deeply thought-provoking look
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Identity Confusion And The Church - Vera English
Except where noted, Scripture quotations are taken from The Holy Bible, New International Version® NIV® Copyright © 1973 1978 1984 2011 by Biblica, Inc. TM. Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.
Scripture quotations marked (NLT) are taken from the Holy Bible, New Living Translation, copyright ©1996, 2004, 2015 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.
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Editor: Mary Beth Baker
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Copyright © 2021 by Vera English
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ISBN: 978-1-7377427-1-5
Published by FarmHousePress
Dedicated to the beautiful lilies of the world.
Contents
Introduction
Chapter 1—Muddled Identities
Chapter 2—Back to the Beginning
Chapter 3—A New Design
Chapter 4—You’ve Got a Friend in Me
Chapter 5—The Way of Abiding
Chapter 6—Freedom to Love Jesus
Chapter 7—Fighting the Good Fight
Introduction
As a mom—and a Christian—I never imagined facing the heart-wrenching trial of identity confusion in one of my children. It simply was not on my radar, certainly not to the degree that it manifested itself in my daughter, Lily. I soon came to realize that alternative identity exploration is a growing societal phenomenon. But what exactly is it, and why is this happening in Christian families?
Amazingly, what started out as a quest to understand identity confusion from a biblical perspective shifted into a rescue mission of my own faith. There is no greater wake-up call for the church than to discover that our children feel safer and more at home in the world’s definition of meaning and purpose.
Yet the question remains, what is prompting an entire generation to abandon their Christian upbringing for alternative realities that feel like a better fit?
In this book, I not only address this critical question, but share my personal story of how God allowed the hardship of identity confusion to bring me sobering clarity regarding deep matters of faith. While the book’s contents are reflective of my own journey, I pray that these pages serve to encourage any who find themselves navigating similar life complexities.
The reality is that identity confusion provides great opportunity to ask ourselves why we believe the things we do. Our faith becomes more precious when we plunge beneath the surface of mere theological constructs to explore the gravity of the cross on a personal level. God, knowing that we would be living in these times, has good news remarkably applicable to identity. Join me as we explore the freedom that comes from a fresh look at the Gospel in an identity confused world.
I will love them freely...
Hosea 14:4, nkjv
Chapter 1
Muddled Identities
I have to be honest—when my daughter announced that she would be identifying as a male, it felt like the bottom of my world fell through. Without a chance to catch a breath, and in a single moment, I was thrust into what seemed like the deep end of identity confusion. Yes, Lily was legally old enough to make this decision, but she was my youngest, and I was heartbroken.
Transgenderism had never entered my mind. In fact, Lily consistently reflected the essence of traditional femininity, always adding a tutu to kick an outfit up a notch. Maybe if I had seen clues I could have mentally prepared. But I hadn’t, and disorientation descended on me like a cold, thick fog.
I became haunted by thoughts of where I went wrong and what I could have done differently. Family and friends (the few who knew) were aghast. Of course, I was concerned for Lily’s spiritual well-being, but I was also riddled with horror over what the often harsh Christian culture would say or think. This in itself should have been a red flag pointing to my own identity confused issues, but I was too busy spiraling to make the connection.
Lily, who was an illustrator at the time, drew all kinds of fascinating character reproductions from popular Disney and Pixar movies. Her work sold generously at comic conventions. One year while we were walking to her booth, Lily and I encountered a group of Christians picketing the gay vending participants. They were marching, carrying signs with anti-gay slogans. It’s things like this that make the LGBTQ+ community think God hates them,
Lily sharply remarked.
I could tell Lily, who had been bullied growing up, was disturbed by Christians spouting shaming sentiments that vilified homosexuals. Naturally, she associated this rally with bullying tactics she herself had suffered in the Christian school she had attended. In other words, this Christian protest triggered Lily’s own memories of being bullied and hated.
This was one of the reasons Lily felt a kindred spirit with the LGBTQ+ community. She often commented on how kind and accepting they were. These were her biggest fans, and she graciously welcomed them. They, in turn, swarmed her with support on social media and went out of their way to visit her at conventions.
I loved that Lily’s heart leaned toward grace, and I highly valued her sentiments surrounding LGBTQ+ struggles. I encouraged this. But it never dawned on me that Lily would one day pull the plug on her own identity in order to live into another—trans.
After surviving the initial shock of my daughter’s new identity revelation, my husband and I set out to learn more about the phenomenon of transgenderism. How does this fit into God’s plans? One thing we realized was that God was allowing us to be painfully schooled in the current culture. Lily’s decision gave us no choice in the matter. Because of our great love for her, we were completely vested. So, putting one foot in front of the other, we began walking (sometimes crawling) and moving forward into the uncharted territory that lay before us.
Uncharted territory
We had lots of tearful conversations with Lily. The prevailing heartache on both sides seemed to boil down to perspective. Ultimately, while Lily was exploring identity
and wanted to be respected in this pursuit, we were discovering with greater clarity who we were in Christ, and we needed to have that respected as well. Gender explorers don’t want family members trying to convert them back to their former selves. Likewise, Christian family members do not want to be converted away from their sacred belief system. The natural response on each side is to dig heels deeply into one’s own convictions, which often turns to heated debates and eventual alienation. For this reason, from this point on, out of respect, I will address my adult trans-identifying child as Bobby, her chosen new name (unless referring to pre-trans identification. At these few times I will use the pronouns she
and her
).
We began to realize that both sides required