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The soul's path - Claudio Demurtas
Claudio Demurtas
The soul’s path
-Novel-
The soul’s path
A novel by Claudio Demurtas
First edition April 2020
Isbn 978-88-3343-239-7
Cover taken from the painting by Lorenzo MattottiVampires
2014
The following novel is purely fictional,
any resemblance to real person or events its pure coincidence
LFA Publisher
Lello Lucignano Editore
Via A. Diaz, 17 -80023-
Caivano -Napoli, Italy
Partita Iva 06298711216
www.lfaeditorenapoli.it --- info@lfaeditorenapoli.it
Distribution by Libro Co. Italia -Firenze -
It flies only who dares to do it
From:"Story of a seagull and the cat that taught her to fly"
By Luis Sepùlveda
To my life partner who gave the push to
sa perda inquaddigada.
ONE
As always, he was out of breath on the last stretch of the climb. That evening, however, the limestone buttresses that surrounded the old fortress loomed more hunched and wicked on the road to Abundance and so the Hail Marys struggled to make their way into his mind, as if occluded by fatigue and in harmony with the Passion and Death of Christ.
Don Emilio had used to say his prayers for years on those afternoon walks from the attic of Vico Quarto S. Giovanni to the hill that faced the city from the south. Once up there, a gravelly parting among the pines led to the terrace of the Belvedere and finally the gaze could sweep and knot in the colors of the plain and the distant sea. Then the trouble passed and his heart melted, arriving at the last post of the Rosary in via del Cammino Nuovo. In fact, it took him ten minutes to recite the Gaudiosi, for the stretch of Via S. Giovanni that reached the foot of the mountain. The seven, eight hundred meters of the ascent of Abundance, on the other hand, were equivalent to the Mystery of the Death of Croce, and it was the least pleasant part of the excursion, especially because a full stomach often cut off his legs and breath. Nevertheless, he willingly submitted to sacrifice, a very small personal ordeal that gave him height in enjoyment, then, and thoughts inaccessible to others, freedom. Therefore he strictly respected the itinerary and travel time, speeding up or slowing down as appropriate as if he had a metronome, to arrive punctually on the New Way in tune with the Resurrection of Christ from the Sepulcher. And he had just reached that goal, at four in the afternoon of that end of March 1985, the year of the Lord.
He felt tired, tired... and could not keep himself within the sphere of his devotions, instead diving into the very white and soft shapes that mixed with the wind, spinning who knows where.
Few people around, but it was always like this, given the inaccessibility of the avenue to cars: only a couple - soldier and maid on leave: the red hands betrayed poor stories
She was making out without thoughts, leaning against the parapet of the first roundabout.
Don Emilio passed on, hastening his pace to gain the edge of the hill and its bench: a lava axis placed in the center of the balustrade, facing the void. That bald clearing of beaten earth and the profile of the cliff the prow that was trying to break the distance from the sea looked like the deck of a ship.
There was no soul there either, and thank goodness; as always, after all: only in the first shadows did some motocross bikes populate the bushes and the results could be seen everywhere, limp and dull with furtive emotions, consumed by rolling the glances.
He sat down to rest. The silence was total cold hybrid. After the litanies, he closed the Rosary with a distracted Salveregina. A crow crept past... The priest had a loose shoe and bent down to tighten the laces; it was then that he saw the sheets scattered under the counter, startled at the sight of the colors and the photos.
Taking a look around, he picked them up with a thief’s gesture, stuffing them under his jacket. Then he began to peek, widening a flap of the clergyman, squalid evolutions of the sexes twisted and dissected by the spotlights. He seemed to have his eye stuck in a keyhole, with a mixture of helpless excitement and sadness, feeling very ashamed. The misery of men! He tried to imagine the commercial organization of those sold scenes, the fake expressions of ecstasy in front of the camera, contractual performances slammed on the platinum paper for lonely men... shit. The same things must have been thought by the lonely dreamer owner of the porn magazine which was then dismissed and thrown away, and he seemed to see him, adolescent and pimply in front of bodies slaughtered, getting lost later in the disgust of oneself and of life.
She sighed. Wasn’t he also falling into the same temptation, despite the bristly and interspersed gray hair?
He folded the leaves and put them in his pocket arching his back. The shadow of the seminary suddenly materialized, staining the hollows of memory with shapes and sounds...From up to the top of the ancient tower, solitary sparrow... here listen
explained Father Farina,you can almost hear the ringing the bell, din din...
From the first bench of the side adjacent to the large window the sun overflowed over the anthology, throwing it outside to look for bleats and daisies and Marciano became his native wild village for eighteen-year-olds, greedy for walks as desperate and intense as those of the poet.
What was it that prompted him to become a priest? Not frustrations to be paid for, family miseries - his father was the town clerk and even without luxury he managed to get a dignified existence - and not even a crystalline vocation. No. He knew very well that it was the fear of death that endorsed his renunciation of the world: a dark all-encompassing feeling that had eroded him ten years after having witnessed, despite him, the sudden death of his grandfather. Before then his childhood had slipped as carefree as that of many children, but the blue-filled balloon had tragically burst over a pair of upturned eyes. And Emilio had abruptly experienced what the constructions of men were, the most tenacious affections, life, he who was viscerally attached to that old man. Nothing but a little bit of nothing, defectable vegetative precariousness ashes.
He had not even cried during the day, because it was not the pain that tormented him, but the sudden merciless awakening, the impact with the inevitability. Because he had seen death in the face and showed white hairs and unmade beds and terrible answers behind the lies that were told to children and so the sweet words of the parents had become stone and mirror of a reality to which they first of all, invincible fathers and charitable mothers had to succumb. And they could no longer send him back to Alice’s country, to games and fairy tales. He had become an adult all of a sudden. Sooner or later he would have done that too and nothing could save him, no strength, a woman’s womb, no one, Jesus! The only one who really had to look for and follow to distant places of the mind... he quickly became indifferent to the company of his peers, to facts, to everything, to things, introverting and dulling the eyes of deadly melancholy. Even the ophthalmologist had naively observed, causing stab wounds to his parents, that his retinas seemed tired, of an old man, as if it were not a couple of diopters, but something else. At thirteen he had entered the seminary: diploma, degree in literature, at twenty-four the priestly ordination.
Sitting on the tip of the seat, legs crossed and stretched out, Don Emilio had printed a half smile. How much water had passed under the bridges of his anguish! By now he was reduced to a thin stream in the plain of forty-five, but out of philosophical conviction, rather than out of the religious hope of a near future afterlife. When we are there, there is no death, when there is death there is no us, it was said in the letter to Meneceo and the assumption well summarized his current position and did not conflict at all with the Faith, on the contrary, rational acceptance and Promessa had led him to a sweet ataraxia that made him live for the day, making the most of every moment of the present.
A blackbird, holed up in some ravine, whistled and his thoughts ran like Hamelin mice behind that modulated sound towards other countryside and other spaces. Then the wind rose shyly, screaming among the evergreen walls and digging essences of years, spring impatience, shivers from one’s body. Once death was exorcised, in fact, the cleaver fell on him. He had heard it lucid and disruptive one summer day in Cala di Vipera, ridge bristling with sharp stones on which it was difficult to walk, to enjoy the sea, an ideal place for a priest. Before then it had cost him nothing to give up the love of a woman, he felt no desire. The only temptation he gave in to him every now and then was the dark chocolate, but the hemorrhoids took care of tempering his overeating. What was the reason that made his sex so he had always asked himself, unable to find any other answer than that of the mortal anguish that had sawn him, hibernating him, sewing on him a perennial depression. How could he have felt the sap flowing through his trunk if he already felt it dry? And one day when he had been in Assisi, in front of the famous Rose Garden he had caught an unpleasant sensation: even Francis had rolled among the thorns to silence the carnal call, until... He looked at the clock and the cirrus clouds, which began to redden on the side of the mountains. The air was silent, serene, crowded on the sides of the slope in tender slides smelling of gentian...
... he always left the car over the path, in the paved road and even that time he had reached the escarpment on foot under the August sun, the swimsuit tightly pulled over the navel, the clothes and the towel inside an Upim bustier. He could not breathe that morning and he immediately catapulted himself into the deep water of the rocks to disintegrate until the first shivers, then he played the hermit crab on the renaccione of the Costa del Paradiso. Usually, the harshness of the place evoked loneliness, so not even he paid attention to the discreet shouting, interspersed with giggles, that came from above, immersed as it was in his warm well-being. A strong blow to the temple, however, threw him out of the numbness with excruciating pain, alternating splashes of blinding and black light.
He straightened his torso pressing his hand to the wound, sure he saw it full of blood, but he wasn’t. At that point, his lucidity regained, he noticed the girls. They jumped like goats running towards him.
Excuse us, oh, excuse us
one asked.
Did we hurt her very much?
How stupid to start throwing stones! But we haven’t seen her, forgive us,"she added the other.
Don Emilio replied with a grimace, feeling the browbone that he was swelling rapidly.A finger below and I would have lost my eye
, he murmured in a cold sweat and almost feeling faint.
It was my fault, I’m mortified
, a brunette in her twenties had come forward.Show me, does it hurt a lot?
Despite her pain, he couldn’t help but notice how well her purple bikini was filled.
Poor thing!
she touched the swollen draft.He’s also pale, wait, lie down, put on like this.
The girl guided him to rest his head on her lap.
You will see that she gets over to her immediately.
Then she had given the handkerchief to her friend so that she could bring it back wet.
The priest was relieved at the fresh cloth and abandoned himself, closing his eyes, grateful. A girl…
When the malaise began to dry, he unexpectedly caught the insinuating scent of her thighs, which he enjoyed the contact with the nape of her neck, and a subtle agitation like leaf vein began to ant over her body. He was shocked and stiffened, closing his eyelids even more to better probe the bottom.Oh dear, Laura, won’t he have fainted?
Tell me no, please. Is it true that you are awake? Don’t scare me!"
He reassured her with a grimace, but that you that was addressed to him, sweet and heartfelt, finished stunning him.
A switch clicked - peremptory sudden her sex - and suddenly peremptory she regained the vertical position by crushing the towel on her. That she happened to him, it was the first time.I’m better now, I’m fine, thanks. She was very kind,
he heard himself say, cracked, cracked pitcher.
What is this her? Among young people, do you not call yourself you?
He didn’t object, enjoying the compliment and being careful not to reveal his years. He disguised himself as a teacher while the girls studied at the Magisterium. They talked a bit about this and that, then they said goodbye.
Are you still staying?
Laura asked, looking at him tenderly.
Yes
Don Emilio replied by inertia, while the stones stirred by the silence confronted the wound one by one, making her still ache. But the other also ached.
He sat on a rock with his feet in the water. Amazed. Weird.
In front of that girl his body had behaved like an induced in front of an inductor and suddenly the inertia of thirty years had dissolved, the rough and empty space of his condition as a priest that had never given him regrets because never
she had
known
known
not.
He had lived only to prepare his own death well, in fact, estotevato. That blow, on the other hand, had thrown it from abord out of its grainy shells into a flat plain.
He was terrified. From the bottom the boulders of him looked at him chubby very clear and clear, like the answer that jumped in his mind...
Don Emilio left the bench and went towards home, gloomy. The memory of those last years harassed him like an abscess, because it was from that cursed day that women, as long as they only caught him in the refuge of his home, offered themselves to him in turn from the glossy paper, materializing sensations that more satisfied and more resurrected intact and overbearing. There was nothing to be done. The porn magazines that he went to buy, in plain clothes, in the ugliest and most remote newsstands of the city, were no longer enough for him. He absolutely needed a woman in flesh and blood. A whore for want of better. True.
Don Emilio was thinking of this as he put the key in the door of the house. The entrance was a tunnel that always remained dark, with its smell of cockroaches and mold, at the end of which the light that rained from above invited you to climb up to the glass eye of the last landing. There he crouched his attic, a bohemian little place completely covered in wood, which opened onto a small terrace with black and white tiles, hanging above the steps of the alley, close to the mountain.
With a dead body on the sofa, a bluebottle beat and retorted on the French windows with useless obstinacy, acute melancholy that soon degraded into paranoid ideas, incubated images. The walls seemed to tighten and even the roof fell limp above him, until fear became a very cold blade that split him, making him regain a curious lucidity, like