The Belinda Chronicles
By Linda Seidel
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Linda Seidel's lightly fictionalized memoir lets readers feel what it's like for a naturally skeptical, yet persistently naïve, older woman to watch her parents age out of life, to think about the epiphanies they enable her to have, and to reflect on the lives of "elders" she didn't appreciate until she'd worn through s
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The Belinda Chronicles - Linda Seidel
The Belinda Chronicles
Praise for The Belinda Chronicles
The Belinda Chronicles expertly illuminates aspects of the human condition that connect us all. Seidel’s beautifully rendered vignettes on family and aging are rich and resonant, unflinching and honest. A true pleasure to read. — Laura McHugh, award-winning author of The Weight of Blood
*****
Genealogy as a tender story of coming to terms with self-identity later in life. Using memory, imagination, and evidence, Seidel builds a candid, but always respectful, narrative based on her elders. The voice is at once wry, sad, funny, and joyful. — Elizabeth Klaver, author of Sites of Autopsy and editor of The Body in Medical Culture
*****
Linda Seidel is sweet, caustic, funny, smart. Like her savvy characters, she doesn’t flinch in her observations of death’s presence. Life at the end may be a disappointing business,
to paraphrase a character in The Belinda Chronicles, but there are nevertheless moments of delight.
Witness them here in this lovely honoring, warm and gritty, all the stuff of family. — Jocelyn Cullity, author of Amah & the Silk-Winged Pigeons and The Envy of Paradise
*****
The Belinda Chronicles invites readers to enter the quietly brewing, fertile headspace of small-town feminist icon, Belinda, whose advancing age serves to illuminate rather than diminish her agency. With wry humor, candor and empathy, Linda Seidel offers aptly titled, pithy portraits of her characters in the throes of dementia, marriage, infidelity, physical frailty, and delight. These brief-but-deep dives into the quiet spaces of human behavior intertwine in a complex network of textured familial relationships. Central to the book’s power is Belinda’s expanding self-awareness. Ruminating on her youthful appearance in The Ingenue,
Belinda cuts through vanity and ambivalence to make this pointed reflection: She wondered whether she wants to be taken seriously. Maybe it was a source of freedom not to be.
Complex truths are sprinkled throughout Seidel’s concise chronicles, giving the reader little to read, and much to ponder. Belinda’s journey may seem to be a deliberate coming to terms with death, but upon reflection, in the words of Belinda, hers is a satisfyingly edgy tale
of coming to terms with life. — Becky Becker, Professor of Theatre at Clemson University, writer, director, and recent editor for Theatre Symposium: A Journal of the Southeastern Theatre Conference
*****
A work of austere tenderness and the most serious kind of playfulness. Seidel’s fearless mindwalk confronts durable philosophical paradoxes of memory, reality and its construction, and the unity of personality and its ephemerality — without ever losing the plain, important narrative of about-to-turn-70 Belinda, blinking into deep time and trying to figure out what it adds up to.
Deeply aware of what [time] did to her parents’ faculties, Seidel’s narrator has a consciousness aware of its own self-construction, made urgent by knowledge of its inevitable dissolution.
The narrator, an admirably self-sufficient woman, remembers her way through her ancestral lines, trying, essentially, to grasp how she got here, and what here-ness amounts to once one’s gone. Repeatedly she tries to fill in the space between the actual self of a person who once was, and the image etched in her own memory. A person of intellectual and moral courage, she tells herself and her readers no lies about just how unsettling the inquiry is. Both haunting and triumphant. — Adam Davis, professor of English at Truman State University, webmaster for the Missouri Folklore Society, and managing editor for Green Hills Literary Lantern
Copyright ©2020 by Linda Seidel
Author’s photo by Robert L. Costic.
Cover design by Russell Nelson. Cover painting by Elda Craumer.
Cover photograph by Joanna Marshall.
All rights reserved. No portion of this publication may be duplicated in any way without the expressed written consent of the publisher, except in the form of brief excerpts or quotations for review purposes.
ISBN: 978-1-952232-51-0
ISBN: 978-1-952232-54-1 (e-book)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2020948349
Published by:
Golden Antelope Press
715 E. McPherson
Kirksville, Missouri 63501
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Email: ndelmoni@gmail.com
In memory of my elders
Note to the Reader
Many of the events in the following stories actually happened-or should have happened because they have become part of family lore. Nonetheless, I have changed most of the characters’ names in order to give myself the freedom to invent detail, dialogue, and interpretations that are, at least partly, my own.
Contents
Prologue: Belinda’s Search for a Genre
I Women and Mothers
Memorial Day
Trudi’s Parents
Lotte
Death of Helen
Trudi Feels Oppressed
Trudi in the Hospital
Marty the Nurse
Trudi’s Journey Home
Wasting Time: Love and Class
II Belinda Reflects
Missing Trudi
The Gap Year
III Men and Fathers
Imaginary Men
Hey!
Leonard in a Decline
The Reinherz Men
Death of Lyle Reinherz
Singing to Leonard
Leonard the Storyteller
IV Belinda Reflects
Staving Off Dementia
Serena
Belinda’s Knee
The Rooster Comb
Peonies
V Orphans
Suprised by Death
Late Summer
Living with the Dead
Creating Safety
Talking to the Dead
The Wedding Photo
Christmas Eve with the Reinherzes
Vicky and Her Twins
Lyle the War Medic
Hank Wonderly
Vicky, Nora, and Lyle
Alice D
Moments of Delight
VI Weddings and Funerals
Funerals
The Wedding
Marriages
VII Belinda Reflects
Safe at Home
Burning the House Down
Dinner at the Lucky Stroke
The Secret Past
The Movies
The Ingenue
Jack Benny
VIII Epilogue
Cult Classic
Acknowledgments
The Belinda Chronicles
Prologue: Belinda’s Search for a Genre
Belinda was nearly 70. Maybe that’s why she had the panicky feeling that she should be writing her memoirs, recording at least some of the details of her uneventful life so that if stroke or Alzheimer’s wiped out her mind, she could still be said to have lived. Not that she had much faith in such an undertaking. It would all be lies,
she said to herself; I’ve always told myself whatever I wanted to hear.
Besides, there was the problem of her name, Belinda, which she regarded as suitable, perhaps, for a child, but surely not for an elderly person already anticipating senility and death. She had never even met a Belinda except in the pages of The Rape of the Lock, and she had never much cared for the poetry of Alexander Pope. She considered that the forcible cutting of a young woman’s hair, these days, would be considered as something like sexual harassment at the least, the perpetrator of which should have a restraining order taken out against him, rather than be celebrated in rhyming couplets.
Well, never mind her name. She would begin, setting down what she could remember or feel or predict, foment a crisis even, rather than retreat back into the pale gray vacuum where there was no story. And yet, she still had a problem: Belinda did not have a plot. Plots created suspense, imposed order on the chaos of random life events, and promised a recognizable conclusion that readers could anticipate. Even memoirs now required plots, especially those written by the ordinary person whose achievements were not intrinsically fascinating or whose friends were not famous. She needed that organizing principle that would drive her narrative forward, and she reviewed the tried-and-true formulas to which so many other writers had resorted. There was romantic comedy, for example, but she believed she was too old to star in one. Even in her younger days, she