Run, Alice, Run
By Lynn Michell
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Alice Green realises that reaching fifty is much the same as being invisible so why not make the most of it? Her head-in-the-sand husband doesn’t notice the clothes mountain and the piles of pretty stationery.
When two police cars draw up outside her house in leafy Edinburgh, Alice knows the game is up. While dealing with the present
Lynn Michell
My seventeen books cross-cross genres, a publisher's nightmare. They include a writing scheme for primary schools, Write From the Start (Longman) a book recording the experiences of thirty people with severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Shattered:Life with ME (HarperCollins), and the authorised biography of the surrealist painter, Rosa Branson (Linen Press). Two books are close to my heart: White Lies, my debut novel, was runner-up in the Robert Louis Stevenson Award. Spanning four generations and set against the backcloth of the 1950s Mao Mao uprising in Kenya, it tells the story of an adulterous love affair between a soldier's wife and an intelligence officer who understands Africa. The Red Beach Hut is about a fine but fated friendship between two outsiders, a gay man and a misfit boy, who meet on a windswept English beach. Society's warped gaze endangers both of them.I have recently moved, after twelve years in southern France, to a remote croft in the Western Isles. I live in a caravan with views of sea and islands, and look after brown and black sheep.
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Run, Alice, Run - Lynn Michell
Run, Alice, Run
Lynn Michell
Linen Press
First Published by Inspired Quill: 2015
Second edition published by Linen Press, London: 2018
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© 2015 Lynn Michell
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The right of Lynn Michell to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted by her in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or to actual events or locales is entirely coincidental.
All rights reserved. This book is sold subject to the condition that it shall not, by way of trade or otherwise, be lent, resold, hired out, or otherwise circulated without the publisher’s prior consent in any form of binding or cover other than that in which it is published and without a similar condition, including this condition, being imposed on the subsequent purchaser.
A CIP catalogue record for this book is available from the British Library.
Cover design: Lynn Michell/Zebedee
ISBN 9780993599767
Dedication
To My OBF. Again.
About the Author
I write and I run Linen Press, a small indie press for women writers: www.linen-press.com. It’s a fine balancing act but ever since I saw Elvira Madigan, I’ve secretly wanted to be a tightrope walker.
My published books criss-cross genres and include a writing scheme for primary schools, a book recording the experiences of thirty people with severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and the authorised biography of the super-realist painter, Rosa Branson.
Close to my heart is my debut novel, White Lies, spanning four generations and played out against the backcloth of the 1950s Mao Mao uprising in Kenya, and The Red Beach Hut about a fine but fated friendship between a man and a boy, both outsiders, both misfits, on a windswept English beach.
I have recently moved, after twelve years in southern France, to a remote croft in the Western Isles. I live in a caravan with views of sea, seals and islands, and look after black and brown sheep.
Books by Lynn Michell
Fiction
2017 The Red Beach Hut. Inspired Quill
2015 Run Alice Run. Inspired Quill
2011 White Lies. Quartet. Rights bought by Linen Press
1993 Letters To My Semi-Detached Son. The Women’s Press
Life writing
2021 Rosa Branson: A Portrait. Linen Press
2013 Shooting Stars Are The Flying Fish Of The Night. Lynn Michell & Stefan Gregory. Linen Press
Non-Fiction
2003 Shattered: Life With ME. HarperCollins
1990 Growing Up in Smoke. Pluto Press
1987-1991 Write From The Start. Longman. A writing scheme for primary schools. Six illustrated pupils’ books and two teachers’ books
Anthologies
1997 A Stranger At My Table: Mothering Adolescents. The Women’s Press
2022 Tabula Rasa: Poetry by Women. Linen Press
Praise for Lynn Michell’s Writing
ROSA BRANSON: A PORTRAIT
‘This wonderful book captures Rosa’s great strength of character, her unquenchable passion to promote classical painting, her astonishing talent and her enormous generosity.’
– Heath Rosselli, Co-founder of The Worlington Movement
‘Compelling and deeply felt. A narrative which has the intimacy and power of memoir.’
– Ali Bacon, author of In the Blink of an Eye and A Kettle of Fish
THE RED BEACH HUT
‘Rare to find such beauty and language as crisp and refreshing as the seaside it so powerfully evokes.’
– Maureen Freely, novelist, translator and activist
‘From the first pages, an atmosphere of such convincing threat that the reader’s expectations are on red alert.’
– Jenny Gorrod. Dundee University Review of the Arts
‘LOVED it so much. The characters are brilliantly rendered. I appreciated its subtlety in terms of how prejudice is handled. Structurally it works exquisitely, and the prose style is gorgeous.’
– Jess Richards, author of Snake Ropes, Cooking with Bones, City of Circles, Birds and Ghosts
‘The prose is achingly beautiful…I doubt there can be a more poetic or lyrical writer when it comes to sea and shore.’
– Avril Joy, Costa and People’s Prize winning author
‘With poetic, melodious prose the narrative moves back and forth between characters, as well as across the ebbs and flows of time and timelessness.’
.– Joyce Goodman, professor of History of Education, Winchester University
‘Lynn Michell writes a beautifully innocent and endearing tale twisted by the tainted gaze of society’s perverse darkness.’
– Isabelle Coy-Dibley for The Contemporary Small Press
‘A parable for our times… a sensitively written contemporary story and an intriguing book about secrets, assumptions, and consequences.’
– Derek Thompson, author of the Thomas Bladen thrillers, Long Shadows, West Country Murder
WHITE LIES
‘A debut novel which possesses and is possessed by a rare authority of voice… It is the mother’s voice that sings White Lies into unforgettability. Hers and Eve’s. Their thoughts and writing ring like music.’
– Tom Adair, The Scotsman
‘Gripping… with a bombshell of an ending.’
– Michele Hanson, The Guardian
‘Credible and touching. Dramatic and tragic.’
– The Torch
‘A first class read. Captures the time and transports the reader whilst exploring the reactions, feelings and fears of those who lived through the early stages of the Emergency.’
– Martyn Day, Lawyer for former Mau Mau against the British Government
‘A wonderful evocation of Africa by an extremely accomplished writer. There are passages of extraordinary vividness and beauty. I love the sense, by the daughter, of unease at her father’s painting of a golden era of colonialism, the spaces, the gaps that he is unwilling or unable to discuss.’
– Edwin Hawkes, Makepeace Towle
SHATTERED: LIFE WITH ME
‘A timely and powerfully written book.’
– Bernard MacLaverty, author of Cal, Lamb, Grace Notes and The Anatomy School.
‘Inspiring stories, not simply of broken lives, but of survival and hope in the face of terrible adversity.’
– Dr Vance Spence, Chairman of MERGE
‘Shattered is a powerfully written account of life with ME – an unpredictable and devastating illness.’
– Tuam Herald
‘The reader is kept on a steady and reassuring journey of validation and support. Identifying with the ME stories reminds us that we are not alone in this fight.’
– CF Alliance Newsletter 2003
Table of Contents
Cover
Title Page
Copyright Page
Dedication
About the Author
Books by Lynn Michell
Praise for Lynn Michell’s Writing
Prelude – Alice
Chapter 1: 2007 – I Shot The Sheriff
Act 1 – Julian
Chapter 2: 1967 – When I Saw You Standing There
Chapter 3: 2007 – Every Breath You Take
Chapter 4: 1967 – I Got You Babe
Chapter 5: 2007 – Would I Lie To You
Chapter 6: 1967 – Hitchin’ A Ride
Chapter 7: 2007 – You Aint Seen Nothing Yet
Chapter 8: 1967 – Let’s Spend The Night Together
Chapter 9: 2007 – Caught In The Act
Chapter 10: 1967 – Breaking Up Is Hard To Do
Chapter 11: 2007 – One Of Us
Act 2 – Oliver
Chapter 12: 1968 – How Does It feel?
Chapter 13: 1970 – Those Were The Days My Friend
Chapter 14: 1970 – Pretty Woman
Chapter 15: 1970 – I Can’t Stand The Rain
Chapter 16: 2007 – Subterranean Homesick Blues
Act 3 – Oliver
Chapter 17: 1971 – Talking About My Generation
Chapter 18: 1971 – Love Is Just A Four Letter Word
Chapter 19: 1971 – It’s A Man’s World
Chapter 20: 2007 – Under My Thumb
Chapter 21: 1971 – Get Up, Stand Up
Chapter 22: 1971 – Talking About The Revolution
Chapter 23: 1972 – Killer Queen
Chapter 24: 1972 – Revolution
Act 4 – Stephen
Chapter 25: 1974 – Get Back To Where You Once Belonged
Chapter 26: 1984 – Help!
Chapter 27: 1984 – Paint It Black
Chapter 28: 1984 – We Don’t Need No Education
Chapter 29: 1985 – Come Together
Chapter 30: 1986 – Windy City
Chapter 31: 2007 – No Direction Home
Chapter 32: 1986 – In My Life
Chapter 33: 1987 – This Woman’s Work
Chapter 34: 1993 – Separate Lives
Chapter 35: 1998 – The Sound Of Silence
Chapter 36: 1998 – What’s Going On?
Chapter 37: 1999 – I Will Survive
Chapter 38: 2002 – When You’re Strange
Chapter 39: 2002 – Papa Don’t Preach
Chapter 40: 2006 – Because I Got High
Chapter 41: 2006 – Just Do It
Chapter 42: 2006 – Can’t Stop The Rain
Chapter 43: 2007 – Hit Me With Your Rhythm Stick
Chapter 44: 2007 – Not Fade Away
Act 5 – Alice
Chapter 45: 2007 – Born To Run
Chapter 46: 2007 – I Can See Clearly Now
Prelude
Alice
Chapter 1
2007
I Shot The Sheriff
Not today! Please not today. Give me one more hour and I can get out of this. I’ll never do it again. Never. Never.
She will rerun this inch of tape loop for the rest of her life.
She indicates left and drives slowly round the corner into the street where she has lived, quietly and anonymously, for the past seventeen years.
Two police cars are parked outside her house.
Down comes the jam jar trapping Alice Green.
For the past week, Alice has not bothered to cover her tracks. She’s left evidence strewn all over her bedroom for anyone to see. Two days ago she pulled off her most outrageous binge – she might as well hold out her hands and tell the police to click on the handcuffs.
Quick. A plan. An escape.
Some lies.
It’s like drowning. Like that book Pincher Martin she read at school, where the whole of a man’s life flashes in front of his water-logged eyes. She watches her personal documentary and in re-watching the beginning, knows the predictable, inevitable ending.
The cars are not exactly discrete, with their brazen POLICE sign and the orange and yellow squares all over the bodywork. You can hardly mistake them for a taxi or a Molly Maid car or a green-painted florist’s delivery van.
One is parked right outside the big house opposite hers; owned by a portly property developer who on Sunday evenings pressure-washes his three silver cars. One for him, one for the wife, and one for emergencies. Boy, this man loves his nozzle of shooting water. Having hosed the cars to within an inch of their lives, he turns his hose on the dead leaves and debris outside his house, whooshing his power-squirt of soapy water all along the pavement to the gutters. Sometimes, when Alice draws her bedroom curtains at eleven at night, he is still at it. He doesn’t speak to Alice Green, perhaps because she owns an old Citroen Diane and never washes it.
The second police car is parked in the spot reserved, in invisible writing, for the very proper and upright couple who inhabit the flat below hers. Theirs is the more prestigious ground floor conversion with its own barricaded front garden and main door. In the driveway sits a red, phallic convertible with personalised number plates. He is a sheriff – something to do with the Scottish courts – and suddenly Eric Clapton is singing along in accompaniment. Appropriate, but inaccurate. She hasn’t shot the Sheriff. Nor his deputy. Nor his wife. She hasn’t shot anyone but she has been very bad.
Alice Green is on her way back from an after-work swim at the local baths; council, not private, because it is only a dream that she might one day plunge into the infinity pool at One-Spa where the monthly membership fee is more than her salary. Instead, her passion for swimming is precariously balanced against the discomfort of public baths with eye-reddening chlorine, screaming children and water that is far too hot for exertion. There she contends with testosterone-charged men who stir up the entire pool and sluice water over her head and capsize her gliding breaststroke. Recently, a friend with a strong interest in these matters, informed her that men at the baths eye up the young mothers. The acronym is MILF – Mothers I’d Like to Fuck. Alice knows that she falls about a hundred lanes outside this category. Not even the very old, skinny-legged pensioner in baggy swimming shorts notices her.
While she travels up and down her lane, she dreams of an empty, embracing sea with a shimmering horizon. Alone, she glides through cool cobalt water that caresses her skin with each wide-open stretch of her arms. She is a sharp silver blade, cutting into the silky fabric of the water and leaving in her wake only a murmur of disturbance.
Alice passes briefly under the public shower which is positioned at the end of the pool. Children must wear swimming costumes to shower. Grown-ups, too, if they want to avoid arrest. On she pads towards the exit and into the confined space of the changing room where she bumps hips and elbows with other damp women. She towels briefly, and pushes her sticky-wet limbs into grey track suit bottoms and an old T-shirt. Her hair drips chemical-water and will later paint dark spots on the seat of her car. Her face is pink and shiny from the exercise and naked of make-up. All this she will amend but only after she has walked her dog, who has been left alone in the house and waiting for his exercise.
Alice Green does not shoot sheriffs or shower naked in public baths or neglect her beloved dog.
Heart pounding, in the three remaining seconds before she comes to a halt, Alice considers her options. She could do a runner; drive straight on past her house, head for Morningside then speed along the city bypass to the ring road. And head for….um…where? Obviously she doesn’t have her passport with her so she can’t catch a plane and start a new life in Mexico. Nor can she fly to a tiny island in the sun, where, in the thrillers she reads, bank robbers and tax evaders flee and live happily ever. Or she could drive round and round Edinburgh until the police get bored and go away. Surely they won’t hang around all evening. After shuffling the cards she has, she settles on the obvious option. Pull up, park nicely and express shock and bewilderment at the police presence. She is just minding her own business and will ask in alarm if there has been an accident. This is nothing to do with her. They have no proof, and it’s innocent until proven guilty, right? Don’t they need a search warrant to look inside a house? Having never tangled with the police, nor committed any crime worse than parking on a double yellow line, she is ignorant of her rights. Perhaps she can persuade them that they need a search warrant, so she can bin the evidence and slip back into her normal self; an ordinary, middle-aged, law-abiding citizen.
That’s a lie. In fact, two lies. First, she did have an encounter with the police, but it was thirty years ago and she dismisses it as irrelevant. Nothing after that. The second lie runs deeper. Who are you kidding, Alice Green, when you describe yourself as ordinary? Ordinary middle-aged women don’t steal clothes from high street shops. They don’t come home to two police cars parked outside their door.
Absorbed in this emotional stocktaking, she doesn’t notice the much younger woman, an erstwhile Alice standing on the pavement beside her. Alice stares at the model of herself made more than thirty years ago. Now I’m hallucinating. It’s the shock of four very visible policemen outside my house. I’m cracking up. She looks at the waif with the waterfall of fair hair and khol-rimmed eyes in a long gypsy skirt and jangling bangles. Her feet are bare.
You’ll catch your death without shoes.
Maternal instinct is stronger than fear. Stronger than guilt.
You never wore shoes when you were my age. We all went barefoot. In the summer, anyway. The summer of love!
It’s not summer. And we’re in Edinburgh with an East wind. You need warm shoes.
I’ll go back and get my red boots later. I’ve come to help.
I’m beyond help.
No, you’re not. What’s happened?
I honestly don’t know. I’m about to be arrested.
Goodness…what did you do?
I’ve been on a bit of a rampage.
Alice is comforted by the presence of this sympathetic young woman, even if she is an apparition. She’s about to talk to four angry policemen so why not entertain a ghost, too? At least the ghost is friendly. The day became surreal some time ago.
You won’t know this yet, but even when you’re middle-aged on the outside – wrinkles and greying hair – you still feel twenty on the inside, only with more luggage. Though not all women go shoplifting when they hit fifty, I suppose.
Why did you do it?
I felt diminished.
The young girl shrugs and Alice somehow knows what she’s going to suggest before she speaks. OK. Let’s go back. Let’s tell the story and see when we went off the rails… it all sounds a bit tragic.
Alice agrees. Close to weeping, she lets her gaze wander over the girl’s youthful beauty and wonders how anyone so lovely morphed into the tired person she is now.
You know, you’re more of a shock than the uniforms,
she says finally. There’s so much joy and hope in your eyes. It breaks my heart to know it will fade.
I’m pretty dismayed too. Sounds like you lost the plot.
It’s true.
Then tell me what happened.
I haven’t time. The police are waiting for me.
OK, the bottom line. Who hurt you first?
Julian,
Alice says, not missing a heartbeat.
Act 1
Julian
Chapter 2
1967
When I Saw You Standing There
Left alone on the pavement, unable to focus on the face of the boy who broke her heart, her mind pulls up several images, as if shuffling postcards. The first is weak and water-coloured: the not-quite-awake walk across fields from her house to the local train halt made of a single platform and the twenty minute ride with doors opening and closing and school kids climbing on board until they finally shunt into High Wycombe station. The second image shows Alice elbowed out of the train and carried on the youthful human tide through the town to the cross-roads where green and black uniforms part company. Last is the muscle-memory of the long, reluctant, steep climb that hurt her thighs no matter how many times she did it and, on cold mornings, squeezed her breath into painful asthmatic wheezes.
Two hills rose above the town, each topped with a grammar school. On one sat the old, prestigious enclave where boys studied science and played rugby. At the end of their school careers, the clever lads, including Julian, were packed off to Oxford and Cambridge to cope with culture shock and meet the privileged boys who had slid down a ready-built slide greased by class and wealth and influence. Those who had got there through hard graft and clever genes remained, for three years, baffled and alienated by a species who strolled the green lawns as if they owned them (some of their fathers probably did) and turned their well-bred noses up at intellectual pursuits. The grammar school boys and the future leaders of the country had nothing to say to each other.
On the other hill, the girls were split into Latin or Domestic Science, played Hockey in winter and Lacrosse in summer, though today Gillian and Alice were lying hidden among tall stalks of tickling grass where the extensive school grounds sloped away down the hill and into the valley.
Only a small bi-plane could cross the divide between the sexes.
The afternoon was too hot and cloudless for running up and down a rectangle of dried mud with heavy butterfly nets. From under half-shut eyelids, Alice cast furtive, astonished glances at her friend’s F cup, fortified bra and the great globes of wobbly flesh contained therein, and understood why, on meeting her, boys’ eyes dipped immediately to this stunning sight. Gillian was tiny in height but bounteous in bosom. Beside them were their cast-off clothes and satchels, stuffed with homework because both worked hard, baffling the staff by being both clever and rebellious. Other girls who were about to finish O levels were either steadfastly on course for university or, to the equal relief of the school and the girls concerned, ready to leave to become hairdressers at the first opportunity. This pair could not be pigeonholed.
I’m too hot,
Alice said, sitting up to examine her legs and shoulders. They were tanned golden but starting to tingle.
Yeah. Me too. We’ll go soon.
Gillian propped herself on her elbow and stared at her friend. You meeting Julian?
Alice’s heart tripped. She held her breath and didn’t reply because no-one, not even Gillian, could imagine what it was like to be absorbed, to the point of obsession, by a boy she had met only a few weeks previously. For another ten minutes, the two girls