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Sarah Thornhill
Sarah Thornhill
Sarah Thornhill
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Sarah Thornhill

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The Orange Prize–Winning author of The Secret River delivers “brilliant fiction and illuminating personal history” in the finale of her Australian trilogy (The Independent).
 
With The Secret River, Kate Grenville dug into her own family’s history to create an unflinching tale of frontier violence in early Australia. She continued her bold exploration of Australia’s beginnings in The Lieutenant. Now Sarah Thornhill brings this acclaimed trilogy to an emotionally explosive conclusion.
 
Sarah is the youngest daughter of William Thornhill, an ex-convict from London. Unknown to Sarah, her father has built his fortune on the blood of Aboriginal people. With a fine stone house and plenty of money, Thornhill has reinvented himself, teaching his daughter to never look back or ask about the past. Instead, Sarah fixes her eyes on handsome Jack Langland, whom she’s loved since she was a child. Their romance seems idyllic, but the ugly secret in Sarah’s family is poised to ambush them both.
 
Driven by the captivating voice of the illiterate Sarah—at once headstrong, sympathetic, curious, and refreshingly honest—this is an unforgettable portrait of a passionate woman caught up in a historical moment that’s left an indelible mark on the present.
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Release dateJun 5, 2012
ISBN9780802194459
Sarah Thornhill
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Kate Grenville

Kate Grenville is a prize-winning fiction writer whose novels include Lilian's Story, Dark Places and the Orange Prize award winning novel The Idea of Perfection. She lives in Sydney with her husband, son and daughter.

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  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Growing up in rural Australia, Sarah Thornhill, daughter of a transported convict, pursues her childhood sweetheart Jack. But Jack's mother was a native Australian, he has "black" blood. While this makes no difference to Sarah, it does to the rest of her family. Different cultures and family secrets try their relationship. Sarah fights for a future with Jack when all the forces of her family and community are against it.The best thing about this book is undeniably the setting. The Thornhills live in mid-nineteenth century rural Australia. It is stark and unforgiving territory. White Australians have all of the anxieties and concerns of a colonial population. Native Australians are reeling from the brutalities of white colonists. It is a fascinating world, and one that Grenville portrays beautifully. That said, this book was too much of a standard romance novel to really speak to me. There are some fascinating themes, but they revolve to heavily around Sarah and Jack's relationship. I would have like a broader focus.The most important takeaway? Grenville reminds readers that we have a collective responsibility for the past, one that a new generation cannot simply erase.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Engrossing story in which Kate Grenville lays bare the secrets and lies of the settlers in Australia and confronts racism. Loved the character of John Daunt - such a gentle and caring soul.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    good to revisit the sometimes troubled Thornhill family in this sequel. Sarah is a strong and determined character - this is all about her point of view; her doomed relationship with Jack and her discovery of the father's sins.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    The white colonists have pushed the original Aborigines to the fringes of society, poor and begging for food and clothing. We first meet Sarah Thornhill as a young girl, her father an ex-convict turned colonist and landowner and the amazing thing about this novel is that the words and what she feels is that of a young girl. As a teenager, the dialog and observations mature somewhat, and she falls in love with her brothers friend and seal hunting partner, but a boy who her stepmother does not consider suitable. There are secrets in her family, that as the youngest she does not know, another brother she never knew, and her and Jack are torn apart. She marries a Mr. Daunt, has a child, and learns to love the kindness of her new husband and matures. So does the prose, which becomes lush and descriptive, beautiful descriptions of the vegetation and the scenery that is the Australian outback. She finally learns the horrific secrets her family had been harboring and struggles to overcome the guilt this knowledge brings. This is an exploration of a young girl turning into a women as well as the part the white colonists had in marginalizing the original Aborigines and their culture. I found it to be profound, but wonderful as well.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This book is the sequel to The secret river although it can be read as a stand alone book. It tells the story of Sarah Thornhill, the youngest daughter of William Thornhill, whose mother died when she was born. Sarah has an older brother William and he spends much time whaling with Jack Langland who is of mixed aboriginal/white descent. The family tolerate their friendship but when after a time they come to love each other and want to get married a secret is revealed to Jack and he leaves in anger without speaking to Sarah and flees to New Zealand. Later Sarah marries an Irish farmer who in time she comes to love.The book did for me paint a good picture of what life would have been like for the illiterate Sarah, living on the land as a farmers wife. it dealt with the racial and class tensions of the time, and showed how actions committed by her parents generation could surface and have to be dealt with, and affect Sarah's life. It also brought in a situation similar to the stolen generation of later times. I liked the book in that it made me think about the issues of the time and what living then would be like for someon such as Sarah but I did not like it nearly as much as the Secret River which seemed to have a lot more detail in the story.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    This sequel to The Secret river unforunately lacks the punch of the forerunner. Reading The secret river allowed me to have a sense of life in England and later Australia with tantelising realism but that was lost in Sarah Thornhill. Sarah is the daughter of Mr Thornhill the main character of The secret river. She is somewhat fiesty choosing initially to flout convention in not riding side saddle and having a liasion with handsom Jack Langland the son of an aboriginal woman. The prejudices and secrets of early Australian history come to bringa pale over Sarah. Eventually she marries and has a daughter settling with a farmer from ireland and a respectful relationship is formed which grows overtime. Some resolution of past wrongs is forged with a trip to new Zealand where a grudging respect for the Maroi women is formed. A rather lackluster novel when compared tot he soaring The secret river.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Historical history is a fav and I know little about this time and place, so am learning a lot. Good writing helps.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This is the sequel to Kate Grenville's excellent The Secret River, but I don't think it matters if you read this one first. I had totally forgotten what happened in The Secret River, which is pertty dopy because at the time I loved it and immediately added Kate Grenville to my favourite authors list on here. Not remembering did not detract from the book at all, and if anything made it slightly better because there was clearly a Dark Secret From The Past.Sarah Thornhill is the youngest of 5 children in the Thornhill family. Her father, William, and her mother Meg were English convicts who were sent to Australia. William is now well-off, remarried to a very unlikable woman, and doing a pretty good job at being upright and respectable. Sarah talks about the "taint" of being an ex-convict though, which is still there. Grenville does a great job again at making you feel like you are back in Australia 200 years ago, up the Hawkesbury River. Sarah grows up and falls in love with Jack Langland, from one of the other farming families in their community. Jack's mother was an Aborigine woman but he's been brought up in the Langland family as one of them, but only up to a point. Jack's best friend is Will, Sarah's oldest brother, and they work on the sealing boats that go to New Zealand. There's a strong New Zealand strand to the story (but I don't want to give away the plot).As you'd expect in a book set in early Australia the main themes are race and class and the different attitudes of the immigrants to the Aborigines. Mostly though this reads like a straightforward good story of Sarah and how she falls in love with a boy who's not good enough for her parents. I really enjoyed it, but it didn't blow me away like the Secret River did at the time.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Born on the banks of the Hawkesbury River, Sarah is the youngest of William and Sarah Thornhill, the hardy colonists we met in Grenville's The Secret River. This new generation of Australians know nothing of their parents origins and begin a new chapter in Australia's history. Growing up strong (in mind and body) and healthy, Sarah lives the life of many a fictious heroine ... beautiful, slightly wild, rebellious and of course, loved by all, especially Jack, the half-cast son of a river neighbour. Family secrets are hard to keep on the river though, and it is only a matter of time before the two young lovers are torn apart by the deeds of the generation before.I began Sarah Thornhill knowing it would not pack the punch of Secret River, so I will not wax on about the sentimentality and romantising of this sequel. Suffice to say that it ties everything up in a nice little buddle without detailing the horrendous realities of the time. It touches on these acpects, but will not upset sensitive readers. The stolen generation theme makes a disguised appearance (although this story takes place long before that became policy), which I commend Grenville for. She has a keen, clear eye for indigenous history and never quakes at attempting to correct history books. But I do get the feeling Sara Thornhill was written more for the publishers than for herself. The pressure for a sequel can be strong, I'm sure, and I do believe many of her readers will devouring this book with relish.As for me, I read it in a day and found it wanting in the company of Secret River.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    By the same author as "The Secret River" which is a book I have previously read and reviewed. I enjoyed this book more than the previous one. The plot was interesting, although the writing is difficult to read as the author has chosen not to use inverted commas which always slows a book down in my opinion.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Sarah Thornhill is the third novel in a trilogy. The first, The Secret River, was wonderful. The second, the Lieutenant, was fine -- but completely unrelated (other than in time and place) to the first. And now the third is a disappointment. It is basically a romance, with none of the complexity of the first novel. Kate Grenville's strong writing raises the book from "chick lit", but I would have been just as happy had I stopped after the first novel. Maybe happier.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    This is a sequel to Secret River which I really enjoyed, It was a great story of early life on the Hawkesbury River NSW and gave the two sides of the story from the settlers on one side and the natives on the other. However this story is really nothing more than a romance ; all it does is tell us "what happened next" and was really an unnecessary read as far as I was concerned.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Third in a series based on the Thornhill family's settlement in Australlia, Sarah Thornhill is the definitely weakest installment. While it was a fast and fairly engaging read, I kept thinking to myself that I had read it all before. Grenville traces again the tricky relations between the white settlers and the black native inhabitants. At times, the blacks (and half-blacks) seem to be accepted--up to a point; at other times, prejudice is rampant. Sarah's Pa, who was "sent out" (meaning he was sent to Australia as punishment for crimes committed in England), has made his way up in the world, accumulating money, land, and a bit of class, including a second wife with pretentions of joining the hoi polloi. The first half of the novel centers around Sarah's growing love for Jack Langland, a half-black young man who seems to be accepted into the family circle. The two have pledged to marry, but when they make this known, Pa and Ma Thornhill make clear where the social and racial lines are to be drawn. As things start to fall apart, family secrets start seeping through the cracks--secrets that tear apart not only Sarah and Jack but the entire Thornhill family.On the plus side, Grenville draws a sharp portrait of the hardships of life on a new settlement as she focuses on Sarah's newly married life with Irishman John Daunt. What she has to say about black-white relations, while painful, is fairly conventional and has been handled more deftly in other works.I have to agree with the reviewer who complained about the substitution of the word "of" for "have" (or, more accurately, the contraction 've) throughout. Maybe the reason it bothered me so much is that, as an English professor, it's one of the perennial errors in student papers that really grates on my nerves. Ex: "They must of took her to the cemetary, I said." It's true that Sarah is illiterate; but then she's telling her story, not writing it down, so why not use the common contraction? By the time I got to the end of the book, I found myself starting to count "ofs" with my teeth set on edge. If it hadn't been for this, I probably would have upped my rating by at least half a star.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Multiple award-winning author Kate Grenville completes her acclaimed early-Australia trilogy with "Sarah Thornhill." This is the story of the eponymous heroine and it wraps up the overarching narrative of Will Thornhill’s family – Will who was transported to Australia as a convict in 1806 – and it contains a highly satisfying, balanced, and beautiful denouement for all that went before. As the life of a strong-willed woman, "Sarah Thornhill" contains some vivid and pitch-perfect scenes throughout. She is thwarted in love early on, and the author sets these scenes in an appropriately high melodrama. The tone subtly and gradually calms for Sarah, as she agrees to marry landowner John Daunt a few years later, and settle at his station to her lot of toil and family-raising. But Ms. Grenville’s theme of the treatment and mistreatment of Aborigines drives this trilogy, and reaches if not a full atonement, then at least Sarah’s contrite and climactic offering on a far-off New Zealand shore during a ceremony honoring a dead Maori girl. Sarah’s odyssey and expiation exhaust her, and Ms. Grenville’s treatment of the climax here deserves every honor and accolade. Her character doesn’t really do enough – she will never fully forgive herself for her unwitting participation in slaughter – but she does everything she can. She empties herself of her story, weeps openly before the village’s women for its fatal history. The native women understand and accept her offering and her tears, and the emotionally drained heroine goes back to the shore in the nighttime. Here she once again reflects on the grand universe, in which she knows she and her family are as nothing, mattering not at all. In truth, not enough can ever be done about humanity’s rapacious nature and the conclusion of this book treats this truth with respect and rectitude. There is no neat wrapping-up and cleansing-of-hands here. The author is too wise and compassionate for that."Sarah Thornhill" concludes this trilogy in the only way that seems possible. The Europeans who plunder and occupy Australia are wise enough in Sarah’s case to understand the enormity of their sin, and must live with the dark knowledge. Read this trilogy for its comprehensive and highly artful treatment of this chapter in history. It is outstanding.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Sarah Thornhill by Kate Grenville is a direct sequel to her novel Secret River as well as the third book in her Colonial Trilogy. Sarah is the last child born to William Thornhill, her mother is dead and her father has remarried a social climbing woman who overlooks her husbands convict past and his other secrets. Sarah grows up and falls in love with Jack Langland, knowing full well that he is part white, part “darkie”. Jack has always been welcomed in her home and she doesn’t think her father will object to the match. She is even more confident when her father brings his half dark granddaughter into the family.But the granddaughter is being forced to give up her “native ways”, she is given the name of Rachel and being taught to do things the English way. Then comes a day when instead of accepting her choice, her parents tear them apart. Jack is told of the massacre of aboriginals that William was a large part of and this turns him against the family and he wants nothing to do with Sarah. She eventually marries another man, one who is kind and caring, but still her thoughts are with Jack. On her father’s deathbed, she finally learns of his secret and she has a very hard time coming to terms with it. Eventually Jack comes back into her life with a request that she come to New Zealand to allow her native family come to terms with the death of William’s half native granddaughter. Will this step allow Sarah to find closure and allow her to move on or will this end in her being alone. Sarah Thornhill, as in all of the books in this trilogy, explores the difficult relationship between the white settlers and the native population. I found this beautifully written story to be a very moving portrait of a young woman of colonial Australia. Never knowing of the atrocities committed by her father, she didn’t realize that bringing his half-breed granddaughter into the family had more to do with atonement than in actually caring for the girl. The author loosely based some of the facts of this story on her own family’s history, and one can see how certain events and choices made in the past will resonate in the future.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Sarah Thornhill, the youngest daughter of a wealthy yet provincial British ex-convict, grows up in 19th-century Australia learning not to ask questions about her family’s past. When Sarah falls in love with a local man whose mother was Aboriginal, her chance at happiness is shattered by the racial and class prejudice churning within her family and Australia’s burgeoning white society. Although Sarah eventually finds a new path for her life, she continues to feel haunted by her youthful love affair, somehow knowing that understanding it will provide a key to her past. When she finally uncovers the truth about her country’s tragic history and her father’s brutal past, she is determined to make amends with those affected by his actions. Summary BPLThird and final installment of the Thornhill family saga. This one is my favourite. Pragmatic, uneducated Sarah tells her story in her own voice, rich in texture and content. Wonderfully human characters.8 out of 10 For fans of Australian historical fiction.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This is the third in a trilogy; I had not read the first two books, but found that this novel works as a standalone. Sufficient history is referenced throughout the novel to give the reader appropriate context for Sarah’s life, even without having read the initial novels. Reading this one, however, did make me want to go back and read the other two. Sarah is the daughter of William Thornhill, a colonist and former prisoner in New South Wales who has made his way up in the world and has a comfortable house on the river. Sarah is somewhat toyboyish and quite feisty, and her voice rings true and likeable as the narrator of the story. As Sarah ages, her childish affection for her older brother’s friend, Jack Langland, grows to love. Jack’s father is a colonist, his mother a native; Sarah is unconcerned with Jack’s race, but dismayed to find how deeply it matters to her family, and finds herself stunned at the hatred spurred by skin color. Jack and Sarah’s love blooms against a backdrop of dark family secrets. While romance plays an important role in the novel, it reads more like historical fiction. It shines light on the colonization of Australia, and the whites’ treatment of the native people, through Sarah’s eyes as she learns the secrets of her own family. Sarah’s shattered sense of her family and her own place in the world, as the truth comes to light, is touching and hauntingly authentic. A fast-moving story, that engages the reader in the lives of the characters and offers a strong sense of setting, this is an enjoyable read.

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Sarah Thornhill - Kate Grenville

PART ONE


Chapter 1

THE HAWKESBURY was a lovely river, wide and calm, the water dimply green, the cliffs golden in the sun, and white birds roosting in the trees like so much washing. It was a sweet thing of a still morning, the river-oaks whispering and the land standing upside down in the water.

They called us the Colony of New South Wales. I never liked that. We wasn’t new anything. We was ourselves.

The Hawkesbury was where the ones come that was sent out. Soon’s they got their freedom, this was where they headed. Fifty miles out of Sydney and not a magistrate or a police to be seen. A man could pick out a bit of ground, get a hut up, never look back.

You heard that a lot. Never looked back.

That made it a place with no grannies and no grandpas. No aunties, no uncles. No past.

Pa started a boatman on the Thames. Then he was sent out, what for I never knew. Eighteen-oh-six, Alexander transport. I was a pestering sort of child but that was all he’d ever say, sitting in the armchair smiling away at nothing and smoothing the nap of the velvet.

Thornhills was in a big way. Three hundred acres of good riverfront land and you had to go all the way up the river to Windsor before you saw a house grand as ours. Pa had got his start in the old Hope, carrying other men’s grain and meat down the river to Sydney. Given that away, now he had his own corn and wheat, beef and hogs, and let other men do the carting of them.

But still a boatman at heart. Always a couple of skiffs down at the jetty, and when they put in the new road to the north he saw an opening, got a punt going. A shilling for a man, half a crown for a man on a horse, sixpence a head for cattle. Where you had people you needed an inn, so he built the Ferryman’s Arms, had George Wheeler run it for him.

I never saw Pa lift an axe or carry a stick of firewood and he had other men now to do the rowing for him. Done enough work for any man’s lifetime, he’d say. Of a morning he’d eat his breakfast, light his pipe, go out to where the men were standing with their hoes and spades. Jemmy Katter, Bob Dodd, Dickie Parson, three or four others. Assigned from Government, serving their time like he’d done. Sent out from London the most of them, never seen a spade in their lives before.

He’d set them to chipping between the corn rows, mucking out the hog-pens. Fill his pipe and stand watching them work. Point and call out if he thought they wasn’t doing it right.

He made them call him sir. A flogging if they forgot.

When you done as well as Pa had, no one said sent out or worn the broad arrow. Now he was what they called an old colonist. Still plenty of folk who wouldn’t put their feet under the same table as an emancipist or invite him into their house. As far as some people went, sent out meant tainted for all time. You and your children and your children’s children. But for other folk, money had a way of blunting the hard shapes of the past. Dressing it up in different words.

Pa was Mr Thornhill of Thornhill’s Point now, but he had some habits that were from before. Of an afternoon he’d get a bit of bread and go out on the verandah. Sit on a hard bench beside the window—didn’t want a cushion—with the bread and a glass of rum-and-water beside him on the sill. He’d put his telescope up to his eye and look down the river where you’d see the boats from Sydney come round the last spur into Thornhill’s Reach. Sliding up fast if the tide was with them, or having to get out the oars if it was sucking back out to sea. Other times he’d swing it round the other way, to the reedy place where the First Branch wound down from among the hills. But mostly he’d look straight across the river up at the line of bush along the top of the cliffs. Nothing up there, only rocks and trees and sky, but he’d sit by the hour watching, the leather worn through to the brass where his hand clamped round it.

I was born in the year eighteen-sixteen, Sarah Thornhill, named after my mother. She was Sarah but always called Sal. I was the baby of the family, why I was called Dolly.

Never liked Dolly. Never wanted to be a doll.

Next above me was Mary, nearly three years older and never let me forget it. Got the side of the bed near the fire. Pushed ahead when we went up the stairs. You know, silly things, but they matter when you’re little.

I had three brothers too, all of them older.

Johnny was two years above Mary. Always with a scheme in his head. Got a lot of lemons once and rigged up a thing to get the juice. Begged some sugar from Ma, set up a stall down at the punt, made a shilling or two.

Bub was two years again above him. Even as a boy Bub was like an old man, sober and slow. Never went anywhere without a hoe and if he saw a thistle he’d stop and grub it out. It was him got the lemons for Johnny. Him got the hiding for it, too.

The oldest of us was Will. Fifteen when I was born and already out on the boats doing a man’s work. Will was away more than he was home. Up and down the coast with the cedar. Over to New Zealand for the seals. Be away so long I’d think he was never coming back, half a year or more.

Captain Thornhill, people called him, though he was really only Will Thornhill who’d worked his way up. Never got his papers, nothing like that. Didn’t read, see. None of us did.

Pa had no time for learning. Could sign his name but often said how a few acres and a flock of sheep was a better gift to your children than anything you’d get out of a book. When he needed something on paper he got old Loveday at Beckett’s Reach to do it for him. Loveday had come free, could of done all right, but drank it all away in his miserable leaky hut. See, Pa would say. Old Loveday’s not got the taint, but tell me this, you rather have his life or mine?

It was never spoke of, but Ma was not really our mother.

I had a few memories, sharp little pictures, of another mother. Will in the kitchen doorway and me sitting on the edge of the table working away at the peas in a pod while this other mother magicked them open down their backbone one by one with her thumbnail, the peas popping out into the blue-striped bowl with the grey chip on the edge. She sat puffing away on her pipe, doing the peas without having to look. The picture was so sharp it even had a smell, baccy and peas together. She’d take the pipe out of her mouth and sing, tuneless and wavery. Oranges and lemons, say the bells of Saint Clement’s, she’d sing. You owe me five farthings, say the bells of Saint Martin’s.

Will with his hands under my armpits, hoisting me in the air, the underside of the shingles swinging round, the pod clutched tight in my fist while the kitchen rolled up and down and under and over, and then I was back on the table with my mouth open, would I cry or laugh I didn’t know, and Will was clattering at the stove, shouting and joking, head way up near the beams, and my mother with the peas all fallen in her pinny lap and not caring.

Then they brought me into a dark room, summer outside but all the curtains drawn across and the shutters closed, someone leading me by the hand over to the high bed where my mother lay, but I was frightened and shy, she was sweaty, her hair in strings, her cheeks sunk in, and her hand on the coverlet waxy and bony.

Whoever was with me, I could feel their hand at my back, pushing, they wanted me to kiss the yellow face on the pillow. Her eyes slid sideways at me, she was smiling, but her lips were so white and dry and her face nothing but wrinkled skin sliding over the bone. I pulled back, how could I kiss such a thing! Her hand crawled towards me over the coverlet and she touched me on the shoulder, top of the head, shoulder again, then the hand fell back and they let me go away.

Like a dream, that first mother melted away and there was another person we called Ma.

Pa had no stories but Ma had enough for the both of them. Turned over the places and names and dates like coins in her hand, counted and re-counted them for the pleasure of it. Her Daddy was in the sugar trade and she grew up in a house at Brixton-Hill, on the north side, that’s the superior side. A husband something in the army, she was Margaret Grant. Come free to New South Wales along with him. Then he died.

I come up the river to help your pa, she’d say. Your mother too sick to care for a houseful of children. Then by and by we was wed.

I loved how neat it was, the way she told it, then and now stitched up tight.

Ma had a scurrying way with her, tilting forward from the waist like a hen in a hurry. Always putting something to rights. She never forgot the stain Pa carried. But the way she saw it, it was a wife’s job to hide it, even if she couldn’t wash it out.

She had a headful of all the things you did so no one would know you had the taint. Elbows off the table, remember Dolly, she’d say, and a well-bred person leaves a scrap on their plate. She’d be running after us with our bonnets when we went outside, did we want to look like blackfellows? Church, rain or shine, every Sunday, that fog of mothballs. We have left undone those things which we ought to have done and we have done those things which we ought not to have done. Church was full of hard words, but those were plain small ones mortared together into something that nothing could get into or out of.

Pa did his best, but he’d forget. Eat off his knife, or say victuals, when Ma thought that was vulgar.

It’s food, William, she’d say. Or comestibles.

By God Meg, he’d say. Combustibles is it?

He’d laugh, but then he’d reach over and touch her arm.

Oh, I’m an ignorant feller, he’d say. Lucky she took me, your ma.

Humour not Ma’s long suit, but she’d smile then, and when she did that you could see what they shared. The two of them, no one else in the room.

I’d seen Pa drink out of the teapot spout, but when Ma was watching he cramped up his thick fingers into the silly little teacup handle. At table he’d work the silverware the way Ma liked, squash the peas onto the fork and line it up with the knife when he’d finished.

If we’d go to him about something he’d say, Best see what your Ma says. Not that he was a weak man, Pa. Not by any manner of means. But he’d done his bit. Got us the house, the land, the money. Found us a good mother. Now he could sit back. Knew Ma would see to it his children had a clean break with the past. Leave it behind the way he had.

Pa enjoyed his money. You once gone without, he’d say, you know it’s better to have than not. The best if you can get it. The best meant meat every day. All the potatoes you could eat, with sweet fresh butter.

And oranges. Never seen an orange before I were twelve year old, he’d say, not to eat. It was a bit of joke between me and Mary, one of the things we did share. Every time Anne brought in a dish of oranges Pa would force his great square thumb into one and lever up a piece of peel. Never seen an orange before I were twelve year old, he’d say. Not to eat.

Mary and me would slip each other a look. She’d suck her lips into a fishmouth and I’d have to make out I was snorting because of my tea going down the wrong way.

Ma would give us the rounds of the kitchen later. Your pa known some hard times, she’d say. You silly girls don’t know the half of it.

There was Mrs Devlin in the kitchen and Anne the maid-of-all-work. A woman once a week for the washing and a native boy for the wood. Still, girls of our class, well-off but not gentry, we learned all the household things. Mrs Devlin showed us how to do the bread and keep the yeast bottle going, the basic things like that, and Ma taught us the finer points, how to slice the bacon thin and the way to fold the flour into a sponge cake so it stayed light. Mary liked working in the kitchen, but I got sick of Mrs Devlin forever on about Mr Devlin that died, and Ma saying oh yes, how hard life was for a poor widder. I didn’t want to spend my time sweating away at the stove, everything eaten by half past twelve and not a thing to show for it.

I learned how to make a loaf and pickle a brisket of beef and all the rest of it, because that’s what a girl was supposed to know. But I’d get away soon’s I could. I had a place of my own, a cave in the bush up behind the house. It was a steep scramble but not far. Close enough so I could be back if Ma called, she’d never know I was gone. Far enough, it was my own world. That country was full of overhangs where the soft yellow rock was worn away underneath, but this one was big enough to stand in and full of light the colour of honey. The floor level, soft with dry sand fallen from the roof, never wet by rain, not since the world began.

I set up house there, the way a child likes to do. Had a chipped teacup and a milk-jug with no handle and a dipper, because on top of the cave was a hole, made by man or nature I didn’t know, that filled with sweet water after rain. The lip of the cave was on a level with the treetops. You could sit there and watch the breeze shivering through the leaves and the river beyond, a band of colour like a muscle. When you sat in the cave the bush sounds come to you sharper. It was like a big ear, listening.

Mary never wanted to go up there. Said she couldn’t see why you’d want to climb up there and get all over prickles just to sit on the hard ground. That suited me. The birds were company enough. One I called the What Bird, it had a call like a question. Dit dit dit dit dit? it would go, and I’d screw my mouth round to answer, Dit dit dit dit?

I thought about flying, stood sometimes on the edge of the rock and wondered. But much as I’d of liked to, and young as I was, I had the sense to know I’d have to wait for some other way to fly.

Chapter 2

NONE OF us Thornhills had our letters, but you didn’t need a book to work out how to count, at least what you had the fingers for.

One day, I’d of been five or six, I went out to Pa on the verandah. A shiny morning, the river with a brush of wind on it that sent a handful of sparkles across the water.

I got three brothers, I said. See, Pa? I know how to count!

His face always seemed bigger than other people’s. Big chin, big nose, big cheeks. And his eyes, the way one was a different shape from the other, that you only saw when he looked at you straight on. Which he did that time. Those blue eyes, and his mouth a funny shape.

No, Dolly, he said. You got four brothers.

Took a gulp of his rum-and-water so I could hear it go down his gullet as if it was having to find its way round something in there.

No, Pa, look, I got three, I said.

Showed him on my fingers.

Will, Bub, Johnny, I said. See?

You got four brothers, Dolly, he said. Only Dick’s gone away for a time.

How come, I said. How come he went away? Where’d he go?

His face hardened down. I knew that meant trouble, told myself let it go!

When’s he coming back, Pa? I said. When’s Dick coming back?

Then he was on his feet, the glass knocked over, the bench clattering on the boards so the dust flew up and he was above me, his big face shouting down into mine. A dizzy ringing when his hand caught me across the side of the head, my ear making a high thin noise like something screaming a long way off.

That’s enough, he said. Get away out of my sight, damn your eyes.

Pushed me, hard, so I stumbled through the doorway into the hall. Crept upstairs to the bedroom, Mary still dead asleep. Got in the bed, coiled myself up small as I could go, pulled the blanket over my head. In the stuffy dark I folded my fingers over one by one. Johnny, Bub, Will. One, two, three.

The rest of the day I kept out of Pa’s way but after lunch I went looking for Will. He was in the old blue skiff, spokeshave in his hand and a bit of wood on his knees, making a new oar-blade.

Pa told me I got four brothers, I said. But I only got three.

Ready to show him on my fingers, but the spokeshave never paused, Will not looking up. All I could see was the top of his old cabbage-tree hat and his shoulders moving with each draw of the spokeshave, the white curls falling away around his feet.

Oh, well, he said. There was Dick. Between me and Bub. That’d be what Pa had in mind.

He dead? I said. Did he die?

Will lifted up the oar-blade, ran his finger over the edge, blew at it.

Not dead, he said. Went off.

Went off, I said. How’s that, went off ? Went off how?

Dick was always a funny one, Will said. Had some funny ideas. Never knew which way he’d jump.

Didn’t you like him, I said.

That made him look up. His eyes like Pa’s, cold blue in his sunburnt face.

Not a matter of not like, he said. Dick and me never had too much to say to each other, all there is to it. Him and Pa, they didn’t get on.

How’s that, I said. Not get on?

Will put down the spokeshave, laid the oar-blade aside. Stood up in the boat so it rocked on the water.

Come down in here, he said.

Lifted me into the boat, sat me on the seat at the stern, his knees nearly touching mine. It was still and hot, a thick smell of pitch coming out from the planks. Like the two of us gone into a room on our own.

Now Dolly, he said. Listen to me. I never known what went on or what didn’t go on. I asked Pa one time. Keep your damned nose out of it, he told me. Belted me. Matter of fact near broke my arm.

For once I sat quiet.

Never asked again, he said. Never thought it was worth another belting. My guess is, Pa had a bust-up with Dick, sent him packing. You know the way Pa is.

Put his hand on my shoulders.

Dolly, we got a brother, he said. Lives somewhere up the Branch so I’ve heard. But I put him out of my mind and tell you what, Dolly, if I was you I’d do the same. Honest to God I would.

All right, Will, I said, because I was a bit frightened, never seen Will so grave.

But I was thinking who could I ask.

Iris Herring lived up the river at Cat-Eye Creek, fowls pecking round outside her hut and a few goats watching you sideways. A patch of potatoes and a bed of the same blood-red geraniums we had at home. A plain woman like a boulder, getting on in years, always with an old pipe in her mouth. But if a baby was on the way or you cut your leg open and needed stitching up, she was the person you got.

Mrs Herring knew everything that went on along the river. Didn’t always tell, but she always knew.

Next time Jemmy Katter rowed Ma up to Mrs Herring’s with a flitch of bacon and a basket of oranges, I come along with her. Sat on Mrs Herring’s lap, on the pinny with all the stains, and leaned my head against her cushiony bosom. They drank their tea and talked about little pitchers having long ears, then Ma went outside to pull a bunch of Mrs Herring’s special scallions and I got in quick.

Did you know my brother, I said. My brother Dick?

Course I did, Mrs Herring said. Heaven’s sakes, I borned the whole lot of you!

Held out her hands, brown and swollen round the joints, shiny bulges on the knuckles, the skin wrinkled as crepe merino.

You was a good handful of bub, Dolly, she said. Come out looking round like you owned

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