My Mother's Voice
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Like the 6 million Jewish people lost in the Holocaust, Armenians lost an incredibly vibrant, successful, and valuable gene pool of more than a million as a result of the Armenian genocide. This story of fourteen-year-old Flora Munushian, the authors mother, brings an epic chapter in Armenian history to life and takes it to heart. Floras incredible story honors her people with dignity and personifies the human spirit of hope, love, and justice.
Floras voice is that of all the victims and survivors of the Armenian Genocide, a story that must not be forgotten.
I am my mothers voice, says Dr. Mouradian, and this is her story.
Kay Mouradian
KAY MOURADIAN, EdD, is a documentary filmmaker and author of previous books on yoga and meditation. A Professor Emerita in the Los Angeles Community Colleges, she holds a doctorate in education from Nova Southeastern University and degrees from Boston University and UCLA. Her documentary, My Mother’s Voice, is based on this book and its predecessor edition, A Gift in the Sunlight.
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My Mother's Voice - Kay Mouradian
My Mother’s
Voice
A Novel
Image349.JPGKAY MOURADIAN
Copyright © 2013 Kay Mouradian
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Cover Art:
IN THE HAREM, Oil on Canvas 1918 by Vartkes Soureniants, National
Gallery of Armenia, Yerevan. Courtesy of Alice Navasargian, author of IRAN-ARMENIA, Golden Bridges, Twentieth Century Iranian-Armenian Painters
Book Jacket Design by Victoria Gevoian
Author photo: Skye Moorhead
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Balboa Press rev. date: 1/28/2013
Contents
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
CHAPTER ONE The Proclamation
CHAPTER TWO The First Day
CHAPTER THREE Remembering Constantinople
CHAPTER FOUR A Missionary’s Creed
CHAPTER FIVE A Mother’s Woe
CHAPTER SIX Nothing Stays The Same
CHAPTER SEVEN The Evil And The Good
CHAPTER EIGHT Resignation
CHAPTER NINE A Dreadful Night
CHAPTER TEN FAMILY LOVE
CHAPTER ELEVEN Closed In
CHAPTER TWELVE A Compassionate Man
CHAPTER THIRTEEN An Opportunity
CHAPTER FOURTEEN A Dangerous Turn
CHAPTER FIFTEEN A Quagmire
CHAPTER SIXTEEN A Great Understanding
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN A Malicious Meeting
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN Another Fright
CHAPTER NINETEEN A Newfound Pride
CHAPTER TWENTY Vulnerable Orphans
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE A Taste Of The Syrian Desert
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO Katma
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE A Horrendous Decision
CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR Traumatized
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE A Relation Appears
CHAPTER TWENTY SIX IS THERE ANY HOPE?
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN Imperil
CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT An Anxious Sister
CHAPTER TWENTY NINE A DEEPENING TRUST
CHAPTER THIRTY The Diplomat
CHAPTER THIRTY ONE Danger In The Covered Bazaar
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO Aleppo Surrenders
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE The Road Back To Turkey
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR Devastating News
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE A Despairing Marriage
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX A CONFRONTATION
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN A Change
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT A Mysterious Visitor
CHAPTER THIRTY NINE An Examination
CHAPTER FORTY In Demand
CHAPTER FORTY ONE Separation
CHAPTER FORTY-TWO A New Admirer
CHAPTER FORTY-THREE A Deflating Offer
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR The Megali Hellas
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE New york
EPILOGUE
QUESTIONS FOR READING GROUPS
SOURCES
In memory of my mother Flora
Embracing
The stories she told me about her childhood in Turkey
And
How she found her way to America to marry a man
She knew only from a photograph…my father.
I knew her story needed to be told
The whole of it…
About the genocide that had broken her heart
And changed her life forever
As well as
The magical and mystical blessings of radiant light
Bestowed upon her in her last years.
She shined like a thousand suns.
I am my mother’s voice
And this is her story.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Many years ago two romance writer friends, Catherine Dees and the late Kay Croissant, gave me hope as well as editorial advice when my mother’s story was merely the seed of an idea that needed good soil and careful watering! This story may never have matured without their deep understanding and knowledge.
Noble insights from Andrea Simpson and Antoinette Spurrier propelled my conviction that Flora’s story needed to be told.
I am grateful to Ara Sarafian of the Gomidas Institute who had faith in my mother’s story and published the predecessor edition, A Gift In The Sunlight.
With heartfelt thanks to Larry McMurtry of Lonesome Dove fame who once said in an interview, If you want to know the facts, read a newspaper, but if you want to know the truth, read a novel.
That quote spoke to me and sparked a decision to weave some Ottoman history into the story.
To my loyal friends Charles and Victoria Gevoian whose encouragement from the story’s inception to their contributions in the making of the documentary many years later, I am most grateful.
And to my co-producer, Mark Friedman, who read the book, envisioned, directed and brought to life a powerful documentary through My Mother’s Voice, I am indebted.
CHAPTER ONE
The Proclamation
May 24, 1915. Hadjin, Turkey
War was scorching the edges of Turkey.
Six months had passed since Turkey joined Germany and Austria in the Great War, but in the isolated mountain town of Hadjin life had not much changed.
The days were still peaceful.
The winter snows had melted, dirt roads were soft and muddy from an early spring thaw and old men still met in the local coffeehouse, their exuberant voices calling out shesh besh as they tossed dice on backgammon boards.
Hagop Munushian enjoyed relaxing over coffee and playing backgammon with his business partner Nubar. It was friendly competition. Nubar had won the first two games and now Hagop saw his chance for a win. Adjusting the red fez covering his bald head and needing a six and a five, he threw the dice against the pearl inlaid board and double sixes fell.
Ohh!
Nubar groaned as his eyes met those of his opponent. Hagop’s eyes were dancing with laughter.
Cool and collected, Hagop was savoring the win. Not saying a word, he took a sip of thick coffee from a chipped demitasse, raised his chin and wiped a smudge of foam off his graying mustache.
I see Flora,
Nubar responded as if he refused to give Hagop the satisfaction of the win.
A grin spreading across his face, Hagop glanced out the sooty window and observed his younger daughter entering the square. Wiry, small and skinny, Flora’s long, brown pigtails were slapping against the empty leather water bag strapped to her back.
She’s a whirlwind of energy,
he said and watched her walking briskly toward the stone fountain in the center of the square. That was her daily chore…to bring home the sweet mountain water that poured continuously through the fountain. Hagop tried not to favor any of his children, but Flora, his fourth child, carried a special place in his heart.
He looked beyond the scene, upward to the huge American missionary compound where Flora attended school. Built on a rockbound plateau and framed by the Taurus Mountains, the site stood like a beacon whose rays shined with the promise of America.
But it was those craggy mountains jutting high into the sky that Hagop loved. As a young boy he had hiked in those mountains with his father. Now he was the father caring for his family and teaching his own children about life.
He had a summer home and a vineyard in those mountains, a refuge from his smelly, dirty, but profitable tanning business. Summers were his delight, high in the sweet air with his wife and mother, his five sons and two daughters.
Summers were happy times, and six weeks from now he and his family would be in those mountains working the vineyard—picking and drying grapes into raisins, storing packs of salted leaves for the winter months and drying grape juice into sweet tasting fruit leather.
He smiled, thinking of his children crushing the grapes for wine, purple-footed and making a silly game of it. Scamps, every one of them, except for Verkin, his beautiful elder daughter who had a kind of womanly dignity that kept her aloof from child play. She was very different from Flora who stomped on the grapes with gusto, always trying to out do her brothers.
Flora did not come into the world easily. Five weeks premature, she almost did not survive. It was in the first year of the twentieth century, on the sixth of September, when she was born.
His mother, Shushan, had delivered the new addition to his growing family. A vision,
she had said, her eyes widening as she handed him his newest daughter. I see many gifts coming to this child, some in the sunlight and some in the shadow, all showering down from heaven.
Having heard his mother’s prophecies many times before, Hagop paid little attention to what she had said. He wrapped a blanket around his tiny daughter and handed the swaddled infant to his wife, into her outstretched arms. She’s frail, Arpi,
he said, like a delicate flower.
Arpi placed her new daughter to her breast. Flora. We should call her Flora.
Minutes later, Hagop, with his huge hands, tenderly took the infant, pressed little Flora to his heart, and sang her a song.
Don’t be afraid, my sweet little Flora.
Father is here and you will grow strong.
In the days that followed, Arpi’s milk ceased to flow.
Hagop’s mother who understood healing ways said, "Nour, pomegranates. The child needs juice from pomegranates."
As if lovingly tending to a sick bird, Hagop had fed his tiny daughter drops of an elixir he had made from pomegranates. It saved her life.
His pleasant reverie ended with a clash.
Dust spiraled upward as a soldier on horseback galloped into the square and pulled up short in front of the bakery. Turkish soldiers were a common sight lately, but there was something unusual about this one. He dismounted, strutted toward the small wood-frame building and clutching onto a sheaf of paper, he nailed the paper to the wall, remounted his horse and sped away.
Something’s happening!
Hagop yelled and bolted out the door. A dozen eyes followed him. Chairs screeched and backgammon boards flew. Everyone was running toward the bakery.
Hagop raced past them. His heart pounding, he scanned the proclamation.
ATTENTION ALL ARMENIANS
ALL ARMENIANS WILL BE MOVED TO THE INTERIOR UNDER ESCORT OF THE TURKISH ARMY. BE PREPARED TO LEAVE WITHIN FIVE DAYS.
YOU MAY TAKE ANY MOVEABLE ITEMS WITH YOU BUT YOU ARE FORBIDDEN TO SELL YOUR HOUSES OR LAND. ALL WEAPONS MUST BE TURNED OVER TO THE GOVERNMENT.
THOSE THAT REFRAIN FROM LEAVING OR TRY TO HIDE WILL BE SHOT.
There was much, much more. The bold, angry words momentarily paralyzed him. He could hardly breathe. He looked at the ashen faces around him and saw shock, disbelief and panic.
Flora was racing toward him. He reached for and grasped her small hand. It was cold. Pulling her close to him, he tried to ease her trembling body and could feel his own legs becoming unsteady and beginning to shake.
What will happen to us?
The thought raced through his mind over and over again.
The damn war had come to Hadjin.
CHAPTER TWO
The First Day
THE DREADED DAY HAD ARRIVED. Soldiers were everywhere.Be at the bridge in two hours!
a soldier shouted to Hagop.
His face expressionless, Hagop felt the lump in his throat swell. Five agonizing days had passed since the posting of the deportation notice. He was struggling.
What to take? Letters? Photographs? Books? Food? Water? Mattresses? Blankets? Only what they could carry…that’s what the proclamation said. As difficult as it was, Hagop was ready.
His face strained, Hagop gathered his family together in front of their home and studied their faces. His second son, Levon, eighteen years old, his mustache sprouting, had high hopes of studying medicine in Paris. But Hagop worried the Turks would draft him into their army as they did his eldest, Antranig. After serving for two years, Antranig managed to find a way to Egypt and was on the high seas on a freighter on its way to America. Hagop was grateful his eldest wouldn’t be subjected to the hell he knew was ahead for the rest of his family.
He placed his hand on the shoulder of his beautiful Verkin, sixteen and resplendent. With her long, shiny auburn hair and her sky blue eyes, his friends said she was the prettiest girl in Hadjin. Years ago Hagop and Armen Avakian’s father had agreed their children would one day marry. Verkin’s engagement ceremony had been planned for this summer. Another dream the war had crushed.
Then there was his feisty, hazel-eyed fourteen-year old Flora, whom some called Nourji, because his pomegranate elixir had saved her life. Last summer Flora had spent a month of study in Constantinople with American missionaries. Her scholastic ambitions made him uneasy. She was unlike other girls in Hadjin whose primary goal was to marry and have children.
His son Toros had just turned eleven, his face a mirror of his elder sister. The youngster loved to spend time with him in his warehouse. He was the son Hagop thought would one day take over his business.
Standing behind Toros was six-year-old Dickran, his dark hair sticking straight up. Dikran never combed his hair and would run and hide if he saw one of his sisters approaching with a comb.
His dear wife Arpi clutched their youngest, three year old Avedis, against her breasts, as if she feared losing him. She had cried herself to sleep the last five nights, and her swollen eyes were a testament of her grief. His attempts to console her had been futile, and he wondered if his feeling of helplessness had fueled her fears.
Then there was his mother, Shushan, who had been praying constantly, pleading to her God for a reprieve. She was approaching seventy. His most immediate concern was for her. How would she fare?
Not uttering a word, he went back inside his home. His eyes wandered to the cradle he had made for his babies, the marriage bed of his parents, the books Flora and Levon loved. He picked up the family Bible, kissed it and read the page where he had recorded the births of his children. He lifted a floorboard to hide it and to his surprise he saw Flora’s diary. Picking it up, he opened it, but immediately closed it, respecting his daughter’s privacy. His heart ached. Would those pages deteriorate along with his scholarly daughter’s hopes? He carefully placed his Bible beside the diary and prayed that he and his family would return safely. Replacing the floorboard, he made the sign of the cross, took one long last look, and locked the door behind him.
He tallied the food in the cart attached to Esh, his donkey. His hand lingered on a sack of raisins. Drying those grapes, crushing others for wine, picking, salting and storing the grape leaves…his simple summer home at his vineyard high in the mountains… those memories flooded over him. Damn Turks! May they rot in Hell!
Let’s go,
he said, following other families who had already started down the hill. As far as he could see, people from all sides of town were gathering by the river’s edge. No one talked. The air was heavy with fear. Shuffling feet, braying donkeys and squeaky wheels were the only sounds heard.
Hagop felt the knot in his stomach tighten as he passed the warehouse he had built twenty years ago. He glanced at the lock on the double doors. Piles of camel, bear and sheepskins he owned will be gone when and if he ever returned to his beloved Hadjin. He knew the Turks would break through the doors and like thieves in the night steal his treasures, his hard work.
Hagop,
a familiar voice called out. It was Nubar.
My donkey is loaded,
Nubar said. I took two camel skins and hated leaving the others behind. Those damn Turks will take them, I know.
Hatred poured through Hagop’s dark eyes. A chill ran up his spine. But as he approached the edge of town, he felt a ray of hope. There, waiting by the river, was a familiar face among the eight Turkish soldiers on horses. The officer in charge was Captain Khounshid.
Hagop remembered that day when the captain, writhing in pain, was brought to his mother, whose reputation as a healer was well known. His mother held the captain’s mangled leg, manipulated his ankle and toes, gently reset the broken bone, plastered the tender area with comfrey, and braced the leg with a splint. The grateful captain, bathed in relief, wanted to pay her, but Shushan refused the money.
He watched the captain lead some of his soldiers across the aged wooden bridge. The clatter of horses’ hoofs reverberated like a wailing echo. Then, as if on cue, the sounds ceased, almost as if time had stopped. The silence was eerie as the soldiers sat upright, waiting.
No one wanted to cross that bridge. Then, hesitantly, an anguished soul took that reluctant step. The march had begun. Minutes felt like hours before Hagop and his family reached the bridge. More than a hundred persons were ahead and hundreds more were behind.
Hagop looked with envy at the rushing water as it splashed against the rocks and boulders as the river drove the sweet water flowing down from the mountain streams. It’s just another day in the life of the river, he thought, and wished his own life could be as normal. But that was not to be. He was on the brink of the unknown, on the edge of a precipice. He held onto the railing and noticed Flora staring back at her school. Come, Flora! We must not look back.
His heart felt heavy. He needed to heed his own words.
Once filled with life and energy, the Protestant missionary school atop Hadjin’s highest plateau now cast a desolate and haunting aura. That’s how Flora felt. Empty. Learning was the spark in her life and now, as she looked up at the American missionary compound, she longed to be there—with her teachers, her friends and her books. Slamming her foot against the bridge, she turned to see the same anger and pain written on the faces of the hundreds lined up and waiting.
Harried men were trying to keep their families and animals together. Bewildered mothers gripped their infants. Pregnant women held their bellies, alarm written on their faces. Flora wanted to comfort Mrs. Albarian who looked as if her baby was ready to be birthed.
This was a day she would never forget. They were leaving their homes and their way of life. Their hopes and dreams were fading. That unforgettable moment, caught in