Final Gifts
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Carol Mithers
Carol Mithers is coauthor, with the 2011 Nobel Peace Prize winner Leymah Gbowee, of Mighty Be Our Powers, which has been translated into 14 languages. Her articles have appeared in a wide variety of newspapers and magazines. Mithers is also the author of Therapy Gone Mad, and her essays have been reprinted in The Best of Oprah, Salon.com's Life As We Know It, and The Vietnam War in American Society (Columbia University Press). She lives in Los Angeles with her husband and daughter.
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Dedication
For my Little Mommy, Billy and Bean
I.
When I was deep in the craziness and trying not to drown, I wondered why there was something about it that felt so familiar. Then I got it: taking care of the old is just like parenting an infant—only on really bad acid.
That acid trip was my life for five years, the length of time my husband and I cared for—sequentially, simultaneously—a series of aged relatives as they passed through the relatively new life phase that is the prelude to death but not active dying. First came my mother-in-law, then father-in-law, my aunt, my mother. All were over 80, with a dizzying array of ailments—chronic obstructive lung disease, dementia, type 2 diabetes, miscellaneous heart conditions, high blood pressure and cholesterol, vertigo, diverticulitis, macular degeneration, gout. All lived far from our Los Angeles home, my mother in north San Diego County, a two-hour drive, four at rush hour; my in-laws in Fort Worth (three hours by plane, 45 minutes from the airport); my aunt in upstate New York (six hours on the plane, two on the road). My sister was also there for our mother, but my husband was an only child and my aunt was childless. Which meant the bulk of the care was on us.
It had been over a decade since I’d given birth, but the feelings of early motherhood came rushing right back: the boulder-weight exhaustion and fractured brain, the claustrophobia, the demands, smells, tasks that had to be done over and over without ever being complete.
Also, and even more strongly, the sense that I had entered a whole new universe. Motherhood at 40 had been utter dislocation. One minute I was the fit, driven journalist I’d always been—at the gym, on the trail, the pregnant pro, proudly hauling my seething, about-to-pop belly to the Bel Air Hotel to interview a movie star, and the next, I was a flabby, hairy-legged wretch who couldn’t hold a thought beyond God, please let her sleep tonight.
I wept as I pushed my new daughter’s carriage through my suburban neighborhood, wondering what the hell had happened to me.
This time, it was as if my whole life—as writer, mother, wife—had been swept into a hallucinatory other place, where I did what I’d always done, yet…nothing worked. I accepted magazine assignments but struggled to write them because my attention was shattered by a constantly ringing phone. I could live physically in my own house, but psychically, I was scattered across four cities and 3,000 miles. I’d wake up to a brilliant blue L.A. morning that I wouldn’t see because I was worrying about the hail due in Texas, the northeaster approaching New York, the brush fire to the south. (If I leaped out of bed and out the door immediately, could I reach my mother?) Arrangements that seemed fixed on Wednesday wavered by Thursday like a roadway heat mirage. Conversations veered from Earth to ether in seconds; by