Running on Two Different Tracks
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Every woman who waited to have a child will understand this story. Eileen Stukane’s determination to become a mother led her to adoption. When agencies said she was “too old,” she found a country that considered her young.
She would not be stopped—until a mystery in Italy almost ended everything. Confronting crisis, she learned how the edge of despair and the brink of salvation need not be two different points but one reality, conferring resilience and wisdom.
Eileen Stukane
Eileen Stukane covers news about the health and economic well-being of New Yorkers for various community newspapers and is a regular contributor to Chelsea Now. She has coauthored four books on women’s health and is the author of The Dream Worlds of Pregnancy. She has held editorial positions at Good Housekeeping, Cosmopolitan, and Self magazines, and for eight years wrote the “Healthy Eating” column for Food & Wine. Her articles related to women’s health have appeared in Cosmopolitan, Harper’s Bazaar, Glamour, McCall’s, Family Circle, Redbook, and numerous other national publications.
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Dedication
For my husband, David, and my daughter, Masha, who take their courageous natures in stride and inspire.
I
It is raining in Rome. Hard drops are bursting like bullets on sidewalks, buildings, and umbrellas. We feel assaulted, and that feels right. After all, we are in Italy to take on the elements, the Italian police, the Italian detectives, the Italians who know Jason but have nothing to say about our missing son, rather, David’s son and my stepson. The last day he was known to be alive his feet were touching Italian soil. He might have walked on this very street, stubbed his toe on the broken pavement before me.
It is stunning to me that a human being, an adored son, brother, and husband, can vanish—disappear from sight completely—and that so few seem to care. If he had been a lost little boy sympathy surely would have surfaced, or at least that is what I imagined, but I was never going to know because Jason is not a child. He is a 33-year-old married man. The government authorities we turned to, while curious about the case, have shown little desire to solve it. When we call from New York, whether we’re speaking to our FBI in Rome or the Ravenna branch of the Italian police (our designated command control in the investigation of Jason’s disappearance), the agents and officers routinely attempt to placate us. He may have played a part in his own disappearance, they tell us—how many times did we have to repeat that Jason did not run off with another woman!—or perhaps he is hiding from an enemy, or maybe he just dropped out. Then the truism is tossed our way: A lot of people, people you would least suspect, decide to leave their old lives and start new ones.
Too many times officials who should have been preventing identity theft told us how easy it was to acquire a brand-new name and Social Security number, a different passport, a tomorrow without a yesterday. No, no, no
issues from our hearts, minds, and lips when we hear these theories bordering on accusations. It is we, not they, who know Jason. He is connected to us. Three months ago the mystery of his disappearance eclipsed imagination. On this rainy day in May, the agonizing search for him does nothing to alter the unimaginable.
The reaction of men—for no female officials have ever spoken to us—does not make sense to me. Here, someone’s beloved son has mysteriously vanished, and no one responds with a sense of urgency. Why have they delayed interviews with the people attached to the names in Jason’s phone directory? What about the manifest for his flight from Los Angeles to Milan? Who might have been sitting next to him on the plane? What is blocking action? Is paralysis rooted in the tangled web of bureaucracy? Is it nothing more than that?
The answers elude me. Italian priorities seem different than ours. When the private detectives at the Politalia agency start rapid-fire monologues with their hands moving as fast as their words, I think they are describing how they have solved the case. Our translator explains that they are upset because they have not received the money David had wired to their offices. Rather than contact us about a missing payment, they had simply stopped working. And they are the ones who are upset? Flying hands and arms accent raised voices, loud words that hardly need to be translated, either from Italian to English or English to Italian. We are inside our own opera, writing our own libretto.
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