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At Hawthorn Time
At Hawthorn Time
At Hawthorn Time
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At Hawthorn Time

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SHORTLISTED FOR THE COSTA NOVEL AWARD 2015
LONGLISTED FOR THE BAILEYS WOMEN'S PRIZE FOR FICTION 2016

Four-thirty on a May morning: the black fading to blue, dawn gathering somewhere below the treeline in the east. A long, straight road runs between sleeping fields to the little village of Lodeshill, and on it two cars lie wrecked and ravished, violence gathered about them in the silent air. One wheel, upturned, still spins.

Howard and Kitty have recently moved to Lodeshill after a life spent in London; now, their marriage is wordlessly falling apart. Custom car enthusiast Jamie has lived in the village for all of his nineteen years and dreams of leaving it behind, while Jack, a vagrant farm-worker and mystic in flight from a bail hostel, arrives in the village on foot one spring morning, bringing change. All four of them are struggling to find a life in the modern countryside; all are trying to find ways to belong.

Building to an extraordinary climax over the course of one spring month, At Hawthorn Time is both a clear-eyed picture of rural Britain, and a heartbreaking exploration of love, land and loss.
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Release dateApr 23, 2015
ISBN9781408859063
At Hawthorn Time
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Melissa Harrison

Melissa Harrison is the author of the novels Clay and At Hawthorn Time, which was shortlisted for the Costa Novel Award and longlisted for the Bailey's Women's Prize, and one work of non-fiction, Rain, which was longlisted forthe Wainwright Prize. She is a nature writer, critic and columnist for TheTimes, the Financial Times and the Guardian, among others. Her new novel All Among the Barley is due for publication in August this year. @M_Z_Harrison

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  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This was a rather enjoyable read. The writing style was wonderful and the characters were detailed and well thought-out. It is a novel about unlikely friendships and how things aren't always what they seem. I do agree with others that the prologue gave a little too much away. I think it was important to set up the plot but a little less detail would have been better.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Harrison's debut novel is a beautiful story of innocence and an awakening awareness of the natural world around us. TC is a young boy from a broken home who lives with his mom in a housing scheme in an unidentified UK town near a city park and commons. The green spaces are a refuge for TC, away from home and school. Others also take comfort in the green space: 78 year old Sophia Adams continues to live in a ground floor flat of Plestor Estates near the park, where her daughter Linda and son Michael were raised and where she is trying to develop an interest in nature in her granddaughter Daisy; and Josef, is a recent Polish immigrant in his 40's from a small farming community. Told over the course of 12 months, the story follows nature's path through the seasons and slowly unfolds the stories of the various characters - TC's troubles at home and school; Josef's struggles to understand the concrete city he now lives in and its inhabitants, at times so alien from the life he knew in his native Poland; and Sophia's observations from her kitchen window of the park and the interactions she has with her daughter and granddaughter. he main focal point of the story is the park, and it is the park that draws the characters together. As beautiful as Harrison's prose is, and as well drawn as the characters are, I found the overall story of our characters and the plot overshadowed by her lyrical descriptions of the natural world. That is not necessarily a bad thing, but may prove to be a bit of a slog for a reader more interested in the characters than the scenery. Overall, an insight-fully written story of the challenges of our modern lives and the resilience of nature to continue its own life-cycle rhythm around us. This book was courtesy of Librarything's Early Review Program.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This was a rather enjoyable read. The writing style was wonderful and the characters were detailed and well thought-out. It is a novel about unlikely friendships and how things aren't always what they seem. I do agree with others that the prologue gave a little too much away. I think it was important to set up the plot but a little less detail would have been better.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This story takes place over a 12 month period with each chapter titled for an event on the Christian calendar, which also tend to mark the passing of the seasons. The setting for the book is an area of open land in inner city London: a run down park established in the Victorian era, a commons area bounded by road and railway, and an old oak woods that run along the embankment of the commons. Bordering this open land is Plestor Estate, a housing development which has seen better days. It is the home of Sophia, a grandmother who raised her family on the estate and is mourning the loss of her husband who died shortly after his retirement. Her granddaughter, Daisy lives with her parents in a more gentrified area of the neighborhood. Plestor is also the home of TC, a nine-going-on-ten year old boy who has recently witnessed the breakup of his family and his father's departure which feels more like a disappearance. Completing the quartet of main characters is Jozef, a polish immigrant whose farm, handed down through generations, was lost due to EU development .TC, Sophia, and Jozef share the experiences of recent loss, a sense of dislocation, and an innate love of the natural world. Through each chapter the author describes the happenings in the natural world, while the characters struggle with modern city life and find solace in the flora and fauna of the park and commons area. They form a loosely linked kinship, especially between TC and Jozef and his dog, Znadja (Polish for foundling). Sophia introduces Daisy into this world, through gardening and observation of nature, as well encouraging her to play with TC. Alas, Daisy is not of their world (spoiler alert) and it is her grounding in the life of the modern world that brings the idyll down.I use the term idyll deliberately because the author's writing has a sense of pastoral poetry buried within. During descriptions of events in the park and the woods, I kept thinking of T.S. Eliot's 'The Wasteland'. Then the phrase from which the novel derives its name appeared on p. 185 (advance reader's copy) "We are the clay that grew tall.." This phrase is paraphrased from Wifred Owen's WWI poem 'Futility': "Was it for this the clay grew tall?" If you look up the poem, you'll find that many of the other phrases of the poem feel familiar after reading this novel. This is a small but ambitious first novel which I feel privileged to have read in advance of it's release.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Clay is a captivating novel. It centres around three finely developed characters: TC, a 9-year-old boy whose parents have just divorced; Jozef, a Polish immigrant who has lost his family farm; and Sophia, an elderly widow trying to connect with her daughter and granddaughter. Each of these characters has a strong connection to nature, and this connection draws them together.In addition to the well drawn characters, the setting in a small urban park as we move from autumn to the following summer allows nature to act as a character; the changing seasons reflect the subtle shiftings in the lives of TC, Sophia and Jozef.Clay tells a good story about trying to belong; to matter to someone. It is a story of friendship, and how our intentions can be so easily misunderstood.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This is a little gem of a book. The characters tug at your heartstrings as you get to know them through their thoughts and their relationship to the little park and bit of wild area near where they live. Sophia is an elderly widow whose life is winding down, but who takes pleasure in closing observing the park near her home in all seasons, and in little acts of subversion. For example, she watches park employees plant daffodils in regimented rows, and when they leave at the end of their shift, she comes back in the dark to rearrange the bulbs in a random and joyous fashion. TC is a 10-year-old boy whose father has just left, and whose mother pays him little attention. He claims the park as his own personal territory, reveling in its small creatures and hidden life. Jozef is a polish immigrant who lost his farm in Poland to "progress" and now does low-paying jobs he hates. He too feels a connection to the land and observes the small boy alone in the park and becomes a much-needed friend to TC. In Clay, we come to care very deeply for these three characters, and wish them happiness. It's disturbing and sad when everything changes, although we can see how and why it happens.I share the author's love of the land and I too observe a wild area in the middle of a city, its flowers, trees, plants, birds, animals and insects, in all kinds of weather and as it changes through the seasons, feeling lucky to have such a place for my daily walk. Since I live in Canada, not England, I was unfamiliar with many of the terms the author uses, but have enjoyed looking them up and making new discoveries. I do enjoy books where you can learn something new. Also the author has a nature blog called Tales of the City, with gorgeous photographs, that I am enjoying.The story is one that stays with you when you turn the last page, and hopefully makes you notice more of the small, insignificant things in the natural world that surrounds us. Highly recommended.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Melissa Harrison's novel Clay is about a few lonely people who interact with and befriend one another in a small, litter-strewn park. Nature is infused in every part of the book and the park itself is like one more character, playing an integral role in the story. "TC began to see that there were things hidden in the ivy: roof slates, a coil of rusted wire...he could tell it had been here for ages, and was part of the place, somehow. It made him have a quiet feeling that he didn't completely understand. In fact, although he could not have known it, as he explored the uneven ground he was moving through the ghostly rooms of the long-gone house...How strange the house's last inhabitants would have found the little boy; or, perhaps, not so very strange at all."The characters include Jozef, a middle-aged Polish immigrant forced to leave his homeland behind, TC, a neglected young boy from a broken home, Sophia, an old widow with an uneasy relationship with her daughter, and Daisy, Sophia's spunky granddaughter. We know from the beginning that things do not bode happily for all the characters because the book opens with TC being interviewed by police and social workers about his relationship with Jozef. Throughout the book, however, the reader can't help but hope for the best for the gentle, innocent people who inhabit the book. I look forward to reading more by Melissa Clay.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Harrison writes the natural world and how some city dwellers interact with it. Beyond that, her plot involves the strained relationships in the separate lives of those people. In summary, I'd have to say that the book certainly gave me material for pondering, despite my dissatisfaction with its quality. The message I most appreciated can be found in 2 quotes "...a life without land was not enough." (p.162) "We are made of the same stuff as the earth...It's in our blood and our bones" (185-6). The relationship between Linda & her mother Sophia as shown late in the book, made me think of the struggles my daughter has with being a different parent from her mother. This review based on an Early Reviewer copy. Hopefully more editing will eliminate some of the rough edges.SPOILER ALERT: It's hard to give a full review without some mention of outcomes. Harrison's prose at times nicely describes the burgeoning life in city parks and byways "To walk Znajda in the warm, golden light was to pass from one blackbird's demesne to another's, their songs a carillon calling him" (p.158), but at times seems a bit strained, as when the road Linda travels is given an historical geography (p.47-8) or when the view from a plane is described even tho no characters are in it (p.211). These are not Linda's thoughts, & are awkward here. As much as she would like us to relate to the world, it is a British world, not my Midwestern one, & I was constantly trying to translate the lime trees, great tits, and willowherb into plants I am familiar with (isn't that Linden trees, Ovenbirds, and Spiraea?)Everyone is sad, and in this tragedy there is an unhappy ending. Reaching out to the natural world is not enoough to save the city dwellers. The young mothers in this story were not likeable, both seeming very self-centered. TC's mother is particularly inarticulate, using "F---" as her generic explanation for why she doesn't do better. At the end, I could see that we are to understand that one of the problems with the world today is the lack of loving attention children receive from their moms, but we aren't given enough to sympathize with them. It also begs the question of why the fathers aren't involved. Daisy's father is just a cardboard stand-in, as is Jamal.I really liked Jozef, his woodcarvings, his concern about TC, his missing belonging to the land where his family had farmed for generations.One sentence sticks out, when Harrison gives a "Little did he know..." warning (p.148) which is completely unnecessary & spoils the picture of Eden TC imagines. There is plenty of foreshadowing in Jozef's uncertainties that we don't need this awkward sentence.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Clay is centered around the lives of four different people only the story starts out like a lukewarm party with lots of dull people. The characters were listless and unmemorable. I felt like a party goer who was more interested in the decor of the party than the people attending it.By page 100 I still hadn't connected with anyone nor could I tell anyone what it was really about. At the center of the story is TC, a nine-turning-ten year old lonely boy. On the surface he is looking for a companion, someone to share his "me against the world" attitude. Deep down he is searching for his father, always fantasizing about ways to get him to come home after divorcing his mom. Other characters include Jamal, TC's mother's boyfriend; Jozef, the Polish immigrant working two jobs; Denny, Jozef's boss at the furniture shop and Musa, Jozef's boss at the takeaway; Sophia, the elderly widow across the park; her daughter Linda; granddaughter Daisy, son Michael, and son-in-law Steven. All these characters circle around each other without real rhyme or reason other than proximity. For example, TC and Jozef forge a misfit friendship and Daisy and grandmother Sophie write misunderstood letters to one another.The best part of Harrison's writing is her descriptive passages about nature. She captures birds, trees, flowers beautifully. Wildlife comes alive and breathes life into the rest of the story.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I enjoyed [Clay: a novel] by [Melissa Harrison], an ER book. This story covers a calendar year in the lives of several people and one dog in urban London. What they all have in common is use of and a relationship to a small natural area. (As far as I can figure out, some of it is formally what we in Atlanta refer to as a park, and some is just area that hasn’t been formally developed or claimed by human beings). The three main human characters are lonely – their relationships to other people aren’t enough – and they have a conscious need for action in /preservation of / relationship with the natural world. It’s not clear to me if this relationship to the natural world is in addition to their human relationships or simply meets needs those human relationships don’t fill. The reader is allowed inside each person’s head for parts of the story; the dog’s actions are described from the perspective of two of the people. I liked all of the characters in the story: Znajda the dog, Jozef, the immigrant from a farm lost to the changes of CE Poland, TC, the adolescent boy with an absent father and mother, Sophia, missing her dead husband, torn between her relationship with her nine-year-old granddaughter Daisy and the possibility of a closer relationship with her daughter Linda, and the relationships that develop among these individuals and others. It’s a comment, in part, I think, on the loneliness of the human condition and how we seek to ameliorate that loneliness.Intriguingly, each chapter was titled with a different holiday or holy day, many of which I had a passing familiarity with (Michelmas, Candlemas, May Day, etc.), and many of which I had to look up (Plough Monday, Hock Tide, Oak Day). The story started and ended with chapters set on St. Bartholomew’s day (Aug. 23rd, the eve of the feast of St. Bartholomew the Apostle, commemorates the assassination of a number of prominent Protestants in Paris in 1572 and the ensuing Huguenot massacres), so it was clear from the beginning that this story would not have a happy ending. And yet I hoped for one! Though perhaps the point wasn’t a happy ending, but the ongoing web of relationships we weave as we try to take care of ourselves and sometimes others.I’m also intrigued by the author’s blog and photos at Tales of the City.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Although for many years I’d enjoyed Melissa Harrison’s nature writing, the first novel of hers which I read was “All Among the Barley” and, having enjoyed her quite brilliant story-telling in that one, I was motivated to read her debut novel … as well as any others she has already written… or will write in the future! I love her eloquent, lyrical and unhurried prose, which she uses very effectively to encapsulate something essential about the changing seasons of the natural world, demonstrating how, even in the most urban of environments, it’s possible to observe these changes if you’re prepared to take the time to stop, look, listen and smell. I enjoyed the myriad ways in which she used the interest each of her main characters showed in the flora and fauna which surrounded them to create the links which brought them together, creating the inter-relatedness which shaped the story’s development. Whilst I felt that I got to know the three main characters well, there were moments when I felt there was an imbalance in the overall story-telling, that nature and the urban landscape were rather more evocatively-drawn “characters” than some of the more peripheral, but key to the story, human ones, rendering them rather one-dimensional. As an example, I’d like to have understood much more about why Kelly, TC’s mother, was so neglectful of her young son. I’m not a reader who needs to have everything spelled out to me but, although there were some implicit clues, a little more background information would have added an important extra dimension to understanding the driving-force behind her behaviour. However, in spite of this slight criticism, I did find myself drawn into the worlds of each of the characters and found myself caring deeply about what was happening to them, feeling increasingly fearful about their individual fates as the story unfolded and reached its sad, if predictable, conclusion. I found it fascinating (as well as impressive) to discover that all the “seeds” for Melissa Harrison’s “trademark” reflections on the inter-connectedness of nature and her human characters were apparent in this story. However, I think that in her later writing she has refined this skill, achieving a better balance and making the inter-relatedness even more powerfully significant. A sad and haunting story.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    The tiny city park is a hub and a focus for many of the local residents. Sophia sees its beauty even through the litter as it is blown around in the wind. A nine year old boy, TC, is discovering the joy that nature can bring as he plays truant from school to explore and discover. Sophia’s granddaughter Daisy who lives round the corner just sees it as a place to play. And there is Jozef, a farmer from Poland, he is now clearing homes and serving at a takeaway, but still has that yearning for the forests and fields of his homeland.

    These four people are brought together like those small whirlwinds that lift the leaves up in the air. TC and Jozef hit it off together immediately with their common love of the natural world, and Jozef takes an interest in his life and the pain TC has from his father leaving. Sophia is trying to spark an interest in nature and the wider world with her granddaughter, but her daughter has other ideas as to what her Daisy should and should not be doing. TC and Daisy occasionally climb trees and play together, but their worlds are so different. Events drift slowly on until someone watching draws the wrong conclusion about an event.

    Harrison writes lyrically in this book on the urban space, but all the way through it is infused with melancholy. There is not just the sadness of the four characters as they go about their daily lives and deal with their own trials and tribulations, but she has picked up on the ambiance of class and consumerism that permeates modern London these days. Her keen eyes write about the smallest details; the unfurling of leaves, the glisten of a stag beetle shell, the tiny channels left by voles, and these all bring alive the natural world of the park. It is a hauntingly beautiful book; not happy by any means, but effortless to read.

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At Hawthorn Time - Melissa Harrison

Prologue

Here’s where it all ends: a long, straight road between fields. Four thirty on a May morning, the black fading to blue, dawn gathering somewhere below the treeline in the east.

Imagine a Roman road. No, go back further: imagine a broad track, in use for centuries by the tribes who lived and fought and died on these islands, and whose blood lives on in us. When the Romans came they paved it, and for a short while it was busy with their armies and trade. After they left it decayed, though it wasn’t forgotten; it came to mark the line beyond which the Vikings lived by their intractable Danish creed. Later it became a drovers’ road, trodden by sheep and cattle; then a turnpike, taking travellers, and mail, to Wales and beyond. Now, though, it is simply an A-road, known around these parts as the Boundway but marked on maps with letters and numbers alone.

Imagine driving that ancient road. The light is rising behind you, the dim fields, on either side, are asleep. Soon you will pass a sign for the village of Lodeshill, a turn-off you note each time you come this way, but never take. But before you can reach it you see something blocking the carriageway half a mile or so ahead, something you can’t yet make out – though part of you already knows, because what else would it be? The straight road points to it like an arrow, and as you draw closer, as you slow and stop, it moves from the realm of the dreamlike to the disbelieved to the real.

You switch off the engine, and as it dies you realise what every day of your life so far has led you to: two cars, spent and ravished, violence gathered about them in the silent air. One wheel, upturned, still spins.

Hands shaking, you make a call. You fight down panic and open your car door, stepping out onto a million tiny fragments of glass. Reluctantly your legs carry you into the scene. Who else will do it, if not you?

I see it all from where I am: the tyre marks, the crumpled metal, the coins and compact discs spilled across the road. The smaller car, with its huge spoiler and brash paint job, rests on its roof, displaying its brutal undercarriage to the sky; the other, a big Audi, has one door half open, and I can see the mundane, private cargo of the door pocket: tissues, a Thermos, a Simon & Garfunkel CD.

I can smell the sharp grass of the churned-up verge, and I can see what it is that awaits you: a young lad in the custom car, upside down and veiled in blood; a slumped figure in the Audi, perfectly still; and beside its open door, a third body, face down, on the road.

Seven slow minutes have passed since the crash. The sky lightens; the spinning wheel slows and halts; birds, one by one, are returning to the hawthorn hedges and shaking down the heavy blossom – although they do not sing. Life struggles and hangs; different futures intrude and unfold. The fact of the accident insists on itself.

I watch as you move from one person to the next, from the injured to the dead. You hold a hand, gently, and it almost pulls me back. I linger as the sirens come, as we are all tended to, even you. At last I become part of the siren’s wail, part of the shimmer of air over the ambulance’s hood: neither earthbound nor quite free.

Later, you will recall the things you saw only in fragments. And I will recall nothing at all.

1

Cherry blossom over, daffs turning. Hawthorn bud-burst.

It was a mild, damp night in April when he escaped the city, though the forecast predicted fairer weather to come. It had rained a little, earlier in the day, and the moist night air had called out snails in their thousands to dot the grimy London pavements in ill-fated hordes.

He put on his ancient army coat, took his pack from behind the door of his room and filled a plastic bottle of water from the tap in the communal kitchen. The pack contained seventeen tatty notebooks, some cooking things, a pup tent and an old brown sleeping bag. His bedroll was strapped to the outside, and the pack itself was studded with badges and pins; a few bits of cloth hung from the straps like prayer flags.

He left the hostel and pushed the keys back in through the letter box; then he began to walk north. At least there was no ankle tag this time, and he knew himself to be invisible to the mobile phone masts he passed and unwatched by satellites overhead. The feeling of walking, after three months locked up, was like when a plane’s wheels break contact with the tarmac and it lifts up and away from the ground.

You could dig out cuttings on Jack, if you wished. He was there in the very early days of Greenham Common, before the women drove him away; he gave a brief quote to a local radio reporter at Newbury and his grainy image – if you know what you’re looking for – can just be discerned in footage of the poll tax riots. The travellers talked of him at Dale Farm, too, though that could have been someone else.

Mostly self-educated, once a haunter of libraries, Jack walked the lost ways from town to town, keeping clear old paths that no one used, avoiding company for the most part and living off the land when he could. Picked up again and again for breaching bail conditions, or vagrancy, or selling pot, he had done short stretches inside everywhere from Brixton to Northumberland, acquiring prison tattoos and learning the advantages of a Bic-shaved skull and a cocksure posture. When at liberty he mostly worked on farms, picking fruit and helping with the harvest; he avoided towns, slept rough, and slowly, over time, forgot that he had once been a protester – or, perhaps, came to embody his protest more absolutely. Born, so he said, in Canterbury, his life before he took to the road was obscure.

Growing ever more unloosed from what seems to sustain the rest of us, more stubborn with every arrest and stranger and more elliptical in his thinking, Jack became, with the passing of decades, less like a modern man and more like the fugitive spirit of English rural rebellion. Or – to some, at least – mad.

Not long after the turn of the millennium a sympathetic journalist tracked him down to a wood near Otmoor; but Jack, by then, had little he wanted to say – certainly not the grand narrative of protest and exclusion that the writer had in mind. He spent two days with Jack, broken by a night at a Premier Inn where he was much disturbed by drunken wedding guests, but his piece, when it came out, barely mentioned Jack at all.

Away from the main arteries the night-time streets were quiet: the odd dog walker, a few revellers, foxes, cabs. Here and there flowers nodded dimly to Jack from front gardens as he passed, blanched by the sodium lights to a uniform paleness: irises, tulips, early peonies dropping their petals over the walls.

He crossed Vauxhall Bridge on foot, stopping for a moment to look down at the black water below, full of ship’s nails and clay pipes and broken bottles and bones. Briefly, he wished for the keys back so he could cast them in, a kind of offering or parting gift – though they would have been swallowed up by darkness long before he could have seen the river take them, and he was far too high up to hear them fall. Where these arcane impulses came from it was impossible to say.

Finding his way through the centre of town was easy enough. Pimlico was quiet; he skirted busy Victoria before pushing on, Green Park invisible behind a high wall to his right. How was it that the names seemed so much more than mere streets, or confluences of streets? Belgravia, Park Lane, Marble Arch, Marylebone: you would not think that such places could be so easily abandoned, yet one by one they fell behind him.

He stopped at a petrol station in Hendon in the small hours, walking across the floodlit forecourt to the little window and handing up coins to a Bangladeshi man who seemed all the more vulnerable for the bulletproof glass between them. Two boys and a girl were hunched on the kerb at the edge of the forecourt, pupils dilated, talking quickly and disjointedly among themselves. The girl had glitter on her temples; one of the boys kept clenching his jaw.

Jack ate the crisps and chocolate he had bought and walked on. For a long while there was hardly anyone around: shift workers, cabbies, bin men. He kept to the same road northbound, crossing side street after side street, all untaken.

By the time it began to be light he knew he was leaving the city behind. Later, inured, almost, to the rush-hour traffic, he passed superstores, car plants, playing fields, a golf course, wasteland; then, with the roar of the M1 somewhere ahead, the straight road broke north-west between fields.

It was enough. He pushed his way off the tarmac through a belt of trees and tangled undergrowth where years of sun-faded litter had blown and caught: beer cans, dog shit in bags, crisp packets, hubcaps. Twenty-odd paces through the wood he emerged into a tussocky field from which two rabbits fled, their white scuts bobbing away into some trees on the far side. He let his pack fall from his shoulder and sat down with his back to an oak.

Listening to the traffic behind him he felt the breeze play on the hairs on his arms and watched the sun rise slowly from a distant reef of cloud. Looking at it made a bluish bruise on his field of vision that jumped and twitched, and he shook his head like a horse trying to shake off a fly, finally squeezing his eyes shut and waiting for the insult to his retina to subside. When he opened his eyes again the horizon swam briefly and the light seemed very bright.

Just to be able to go where I like, he thought. Just to live how I see fit. I don’t do any harm, God knows; and there are plenty out there that do. So let me go now, please; just leave me be.

After a while a blackcap sang from the scrubby field margin and the morning sun began to dry the dew from the grass. Jack picked up his pack and began to look around him for somewhere to sleep.

The field itself was almost entirely without distinction, a nondescript trapezium bordered by overgrown hedges. It had not been grazed or mowed for a long time, and pioneer saplings – scrub oak, sycamore, ash – were stealing a slow march on the grass. There were no paths through it, unless you counted those made by rabbits and foxes, and it harboured no species of special distinction, no orchids or rare butterflies. Yet in summer its edges foamed with meadowsweet, and in autumn it bore clutches of mushrooms like pale golden eggs.

Jack chose a spot in the shade of the far hedge and rolled out his mat. He took a sandwich and a can of Coke from his rucksack, the last of his shop-bought food, and with his back to the city he sat down to eat.

It was still possible to find work on the land almost all year round: picking daffs began in February, and farms often wanted help with lambing; in summer there was hay to mow and soft fruit to pick – although he hated the polytunnels with their close, stale air. You could usually get work picking apples in September and, later, felling Christmas trees; he had once spent much of December making holly wreaths. But fieldwork was what he loved best, and it was spring: nearly asparagus season. He thought back over the farms he knew, and that knew him: he wanted to keep his head down, didn’t want to sign any papers this time, and that narrowed the options a little.

He’d set out from Devon in January to walk vaguely north-east. He’d never meant to come to London, but the arrest and the sentence – for breaching an order not to trespass, although all he’d wanted to do was walk an old cart track between villages – had blown him off course.

Now he decided to keep to the old Roman road north out of the city. Eventually it would take him to a little village called Lodeshill which had four farms with asparagus beds clustered around it. There was one he’d promised himself never to set foot on again, but he felt sure that one of the others would take him on for a few weeks with no questions asked. There was some lovely countryside up that way, quiet and slow and unvisited, and not too busy with day trippers – not like Cumbria or Cornwall. It was an in-between, unpretentious place.

Apart from the road, the quiet concatenation of the drink inside its can, when he opened it, was the loudest thing Jack could hear. When he had finished he lay back, thankful for having eaten, thankful for the weather, wondering when sleep would come. And then he slept.

As the sun rose slowly over Jack’s head a hawthorn in the hedge behind him felt the light on its new green leaves and thought with its green mind about blossom.

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Horse chestnuts, swallows, blackthorn (sloe).

As soon as his wife had left the house Howard went about shutting all the windows. It was a warm day, but not so warm they all needed to be open, and anyway, he couldn’t bear the sound of the road. Flies were getting in, too; he’d swatted one in the kitchen earlier. Kitty would only complain at bedtime, when there were insects in her room.

It wasn’t the road through Lodeshill he minded; there wasn’t much traffic on that. Why would there be – there was no shop any more, and the Green Man was hardly the type of pub people sought out. Even the church only got a few of the faithful, and those on foot. Kitty one of them now, of course.

It was the Boundway that bothered him. Straight as a ruler it ran, passing the village less than half a mile away, and the local louts all gunned their muscle cars along it – especially at weekends. You could hear them changing up from miles off, the whine of it; you’d think they’d find a better way to spend their time, but no. Still, he reflected, putting an old Kinks CD on the hi-fi in the living room, it could have been worse: he’d heard that there’d once been quad-bike racing somewhere nearby, though the track had closed down long before they arrived in the village. Et in arcadia arseholes, he thought, and went to the pantry for a drink.

He knew there was a six-pack of lager left over from the last time their son Chris had visited, but it was a brown ale he was after. He’d need to get plenty of booze in for next month, when their daughter Jenny was flying back from Hong Kong and both kids would be with them for the first time in ages. Vodka for Jenny, he thought. Probably.

There was no brown ale. Sighing, he turned and climbed the stairs to the radio room; there was a Marconi 264 that wanted a new valve. Downstairs, a bumblebee knocked twice against the kitchen window before lurching away into the warm spring air.

Most of the time Kitty had the master bedroom to herself; Howard usually slept downstairs, in what had previously been the study. Before they moved to Lodeshill from north London, a year ago, it had only been an occasional thing; now, apart from when the kids visited, he was down on the sofa bed every night. It was something they did not discuss.

There were three bedrooms upstairs; one was Kitty’s, one had briefly been Jenny’s until she left university, and still was when she visited. The light was good in the third, so when they moved in Howard had taken the old pink carpet up and built a counter around two sides, set his tool chests underneath. Then he bought a craft light and a stool, carried the radios up from the garage – he had just four, then, and one in bits – and got to work. He had thirteen vintage wireless sets now, all pre-war; good working examples, not boot sale stuff. Five more he’d sold or traded. Where do you stop? There were people who had two hundred.

You could find them easily enough on the Internet, of course, but he felt – obscurely, though with some certainty – that it wasn’t the right way. He went to swap meets and the odd show, but preferred local auctions and private sales to buying from other enthusiasts, despite the extra legwork it entailed. Admittedly, most of what came up that way was rubbish – either cheap to begin with, bodged about or beyond repair, good only for parts – but not always.

Word of mouth had got him more than one tidy example: ‘I know a bloke who’ll take that off your hands.’ He had a Ferguson 366 Superhet that was found by a local family in the attic of a house they had just bought; it came to him covered in dust for five quid. The Marconi he was working on now turned up in a barn near Deal, and had barely been touched the cabinet full of mouse shit, the dial clogged with cobwebs and chaff.

As well as finding them, doing the work himself was what he loved: replacing the knobs, restoring cracked Bakelite, a new valve here and there. He wasn’t an expert, not yet, but he did OK, and his experience with guitars and amps helped. There was something almost magical about taking an old wireless and bringing it back to life: the way they could be woken, no matter what state they were in, to pull living sounds from the air. The lovely old cabinets hiding such comprehensible innards; the simple heft of them in his hands.

It was gone four when the letter box banged; he was trying to get at the capacitors, deep under a block of resistors, and was working carefully and with minute concentration. He considered ignoring it but it rattled again, followed by the slap of something landing on the mat. After a moment he carefully set down his tools and went downstairs. For God’s sake, a telephone directory. As if anyone used those any more.

Back upstairs he peered again through the magnifier at the circuit, but found he couldn’t narrow his focus properly, failed to feel again the thread of the stubbornly absent current and its likely pathway and hindrances. He replaced a capacitor, but even as he did so he was remembering knocking on doors after school when he was a child and running away; and he thought, too, of the time he picked May blossom from the churchyard, with its ripe and heady scent, and brought it home to his mother, who had chased him, cursing, from the door. Half a century ago, but still like yesterday. That such moments could remain latent somewhere in the intricate cortices of the brain; that he, not far off sixty years of age now, should still detect their resonance. It was a mystery.

He swung the craft light away and stretched his back. A beer before Kitty came home; why not? Not the Green Man, though, with its unfriendly farmers and local doleys; the Bricklayer’s Arms, in Crowmere. It was only ten minutes away, and it was a nice day for a walk. He fetched the paper from the sitting room, switched off the Kinks and set out.

Lodeshill was barely a village; more a hamlet, really. As well as Manor Lodge there was a grand Elizabethan house with mullioned windows and a box maze at the end of a long private drive; a pretty church, largely overlooked by the ecclesiastical gazetteers; a Georgian vicarage (the vicar himself served several churches, and lived elsewhere); the Green Man; a dozen modern houses of varying quality, and a cul-de-sac of ugly bungalows inhabited mostly by the elderly. What had once been the shop and post office was now a private house, though

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