A Knight For Love

By A.M. Westerling

Haunted by memories of the 7th Crusade, Warin de Taillur vows to lay down his sword and embrace the monastic life. But first, rescuing an urchin abandoned by a French roadside will be the initial step in his absolution. When he discovers the urchin is a young noble woman in need of protection, against his better judgment he agrees to return her home to England. Love for her soon overwhelms him but it’s a love he must hold at bay for he has nothing to offer her other than a scarred heart.

Driven from her home, Caperun Keep, by a deceitful aunt, Alyna Caperun must place her trust in the brooding Crusader who rescues her. As the only means to recover her castle and at the king’s command, she consents to marrying the knight, Warin de Taillur, even though she knows he could never love her for anything other than the lands and castle she brings to the marriage. Knows too, he battles demons not even she can fathom.

Will they find love? Or will Warin’s past destroy any chance they have of finding happiness together?

Fans of medieval romance will delight in reading A Knight For Love, a romantic adventure styled along the lines of Ivanhoe and Robin Hood.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BWL Publishing Inc.
• Release date: Jun 27, 2013
• ISBN: 9781771450676

A.M. Westerling

From vikings to viscounts, join the adventure, live the romance.Living by the motto "You don't know unless you try", A.M.Westerling started writing historical romance because she couldn't find the kinds of stories she enjoyed. After all, she thought, who doesn’t enjoy a tasty helping of dashing heroes and spunky heroines, seasoned with a liberal sprinkle of passion and adventure?Westerling, a former engineer, is a member of the Romance Writers of America and active in her local chapter. As well as writing, she enjoys cooking, gardening, camping, yoga, and watching pro sports.Visit her at:www.amwesterling.comwww.facebook.com/A.M.Westerling www.Twitter.com/AMWesterling

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A Knight For Love

by A.M. Westerling

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Copyright 2nd Ed. 2018 by A.M. Westerling

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Dedication

To my boys

Acknowledgements

Again, a very big thank you to Victoria Chatham and M.K. Stelmack. You always manage to (tactfully!) keep me on track.

And a special thank you to my parents – you taught me the joy of books.

Chapter One

Southern France

Icy water dripped off Alyna Caperun’s cap to puddle between her shoulder blades where the coarse woolen tunic touched her skin. She hunched her shoulders, shivering with what she hoped was only cold and not sickness. For in this year of Our Lord 1251, disease could cut down a man in his prime in a matter of hours.

As had happened to her brother, David, only this morning. She sank to her knees as she watched several men lower his shrouded body into a shallow grave by the side of the road.

Panic at the knowledge she was now alone far from home battled with hunger within her. And overall, anger. Anger at David for dying. Anger at her aunt’s treachery that had brought her here. And even anger at the unsympathetic skies that had unleashed a downpour, chilling her and turning the road into a quagmire.

Someone pounded a rough cross fashioned from two branches lashed together into the loose dirt at the head of the grave before the tonsured priest waved his hand over it in one last benediction. Then the group dispersed but not before casting anxious glances her way – she knew very well they feared she carried the same pestilence that had felled David.

Abandoned, Alyna remained on her knees with head bowed over the grave of her brother. Tears streamed down her cheeks but by now it rained so hard it was difficult to tell where the rain stopped and the tears began. Her lips formed in prayer and she took what comfort she could in the familiar words. Over and over, she repeated the lines, always to stumble over the same one: "Dieu li volt." God wills it.

With gaze downcast she knelt for some time, lost in sorrow, lost in dejection.

Lost in despair of the certain knowledge she now had no way to return home to England.

* * *

After the heat of the Holy Land, the rain mercilessly pelting Warin de Taillur was foul indeed. Beneath him, the powerful muscles of his mount, Citadel, bulged and released as the mighty creature plodded through the mud, pulling each hoof free from the sucking earth that almost stopped them in their tracks.

Warin’s thoughts towards the weather were most uncharitable and his lips moved silently as he cursed the rain, the mud, and the loused porridge he had eaten earlier that day that now threatened to sicken him. Moreover, the nasty occupants of the lumpy mattress he had slept on last night left his body a mass of itchy red welts.

Wallowing in clammy self pity as he scratched the offending bites, he took no notice of what appeared to be a weathered tree stump by the side of the road until he was almost upon it. The stump shifted and brilliant blue green eyes beneath a rain soaked cap lifted to him for an instant before looking down again.

God’s blood, but what he had first thought to be a lifeless bit of wood turned out to be a sodden lump of humanity. He pulled his mount to a stop and peered down at the pathetic creature, one of many he’d seen on his travels home. Doubtless there would be many more. He shrugged and urged on Citadel. He had no time for rest until night fell.

Take me with you if you will. A thin, reedy voice wobbled through the air.

Compassion assailed him at the feeble entreaty and Warin wheeled around.

Did you call me? he asked politely, gazing down towards the slight figure hunched in the rain.

The person, a child judging by size, appeared not to hear him, so Warin tried again, raising his voice several notches. Are you alone? Do you need help?

Still no reaction, so Warin tried one last time, endeavoring not to let irritation creep into his voice – the child had hailed him, and if Warin had the decency to stop in this miserable weather, then the child should have the decency to answer.

Are you lost?

The bowed head bobbed with a quick nod. I beg you to take me with you. I’m alone.

Warin frowned. Shepherding a forsaken soul was the last thing he needed. Responsibility for another was not a task he took on gladly; in fact, he had vowed to avoid it at all costs.

I only have one horse, he replied brusquely. The road is soft and the extra weight will burden the beast.

I can walk. The child, a lad, actually, by the looks of his travel stained tunic and hose, kept his head bowed.

Warin groaned and inspected the piteous figure. A weakened lad would only slow him. You don’t look strong enough.

I won’t be a bother. The boy lifted pale trembling hands, clasped in supplication. I beg you, I have no one.

Neither do I, thought Warin, and that is the way I would have it. He glanced longingly at the road winding away through the trees. He couldn’t waste any more time, already darkness threatened.

Don’t leave me here. Panic edged the thin voice.

Common decency demanded he offer aid. That and the thought of receiving favor from above for his kindness to a stranger.

With a sigh, he slid down from his saddle, landing with a squishy thump in the muck of the road. I’ve not seen your face, how do I know you’re not scarred with pox?

The lad raised his face, slowly, as if expecting to be boxed about the ears, and regarded Warin through gem-colored eyes widened with fear.

Eyes that stood out in dazzling contrast to the grey mist hugging the earth around them, eyes that captivated Warin, eyes that stopped him in his tracks.

Until he realized he stood there, witless and silent, like a sack of grain. Warin shook his head and shut his own eyes to break the spell.

Let me help you up, he barked, annoyed at himself with his momentary lapse. He extended a hand, but the lad leaned back. I’m not going to hurt you.

The youngster grasped the outreached hand and stood up awkwardly, as if he had been sitting in the cold and the damp for some time. He jammed his hands into his pockets and stood silent, swaying slightly, teeth chattering with cold and gaze fixed on the ground.

He was a bit taller than Warin had expected, reaching perhaps to his shoulder and so he pegged his age at about eleven or twelve.

A thought crossed Warin’s mind – how like the capricious heavens to hand him a squire when he no longer had need of one. A year ago, he would have been overjoyed to have a squire accompany him on Crusade, to clean Warin’s armour and polish his shield, to serve his food and run his errands, to care for his horse.

But now? He had no need of a squire as he intended to lay down his sword and serve the Almighty in the monastery at Mont St. Michel.

However, squire or no, he couldn’t leave the child stranded at the side of the road and mayhap a good deed would begin to wash the stains of war from Warin’s soul. How are you called?

The lad’s lips moved but Warin couldn’t hear for the rain pelting his helmet.

He leaned closer. Eh, what’s that?

Alyna. Alyna Caperun.

Alyna? He must have heard wrong. Alyna was a girl’s name and a grubby young boy stood before him, not a girl. It must be Alan, then.

Alan? A fine name to be sure.

The lad shook his head and opened his mouth to speak but Warin held up a hand. You’re a child, you must only speak when spoken to.

The lad stared at him for a few seconds then shrugged.

Warin inspected him more fully. He guessed the youngster had not entered puberty as yet for the voice had been high-pitched and girlish and the cheeks, what he could see of them, were downy smooth. Just as well, for he wouldn’t have to concern himself with the lad chasing skirts.

However, he recognized the blank, staring eyes and dull expression as shock – he had seen it many times on the Palestinian battlefields as the mind tried to block what the eyes had seen. He dropped his hand on the youngster’s shoulder.

I am Warin de Taillur, he said simply. He gestured with his chin to the fresh mound and crudely fashioned cross, taking a stab in the dark. Your travelling companion is now in a better place.

Alyna nodded, mute in her misery, the words slowly penetrating her mind. Travelling companion. David. She blinked hard, once, twice, against the tears, forcing them back. She had no time to cry anymore.

She sucked in a huge, ragged breath. How rude the man must find her. First she had hailed him, now sorrow over David’s death held her tongue. In truth, she hadn’t expected the knight to stop but he had. She opened her mouth to thank him and lifted her gaze enough to finally look him full in the face.

And froze, mouth yet gaping.

He radiated power. It emanated from his every pore, permeating the area around him with a tangible force she could almost reach out and touch.

She could barely see the glint of his eyes behind the shielded helmet and she wondered why he would travel with it on for it must be uncomfortable. Belatedly, realizing she must look a fool, she clamped her mouth shut and again lowered her gaze, all the while inspecting him.

His surcoat, albeit of fine material, was stained and dirty, as were his hose. He – what did he say he was called? Warin? – wore a stained and dirty hauberk, badly in need of repair.

All in all, not a particularly reassuring display but something about him had driven her to call out to him as he plodded past her on the road.

She had taken a risk in stopping the knight on the mighty destrier but some nameless quality had drawn her to him – mayhap the white flag with the red cross pinned to his helmet signifying he had been on Crusade. It hung limply in the rain to pool on his shoulders yet it was the only clean thing he possessed. Someone who had chosen to serve the Almighty in the Holy Land and made sure all knew of it must be trustworthy.

Warin spoke again. Alan? Are you well?

Alyna looked around her. Alan? Who was Alan? Comprehension seeped through her when she saw no one, only mist draped trees and the muddy, rutted road. He must have misunderstood her. With the cap pulled low over her forehead and her nondescript, grubby clothing, he must think her a lad.

She at first thought to correct him then changed her mind. Mayhap it would be safer for her to let him linger with his misconception of her identity a while longer.

I am well, she replied, her voice husky and barely more than a whisper thanks to the chill air.

You may ride. Warin pointed towards Citadel. I can walk faster than you.

The horse stood forlornly, chewing on the bit. Rain dulled his normally shiny black coat, and mud clumped his tail and coated his legs up to his hocks. Like his master, the animal also needed cleaning and care.

Alyna flicked a dubious glance towards Warin but he ignored it and gave her a slight push towards the huge destrier.

I will give you a leg up.

Thank you. Alyna squelched through the soft mud to acquaint herself with the horse, warily scratching him behind the ears, which she could only do because the animal’s head drooped with fatigue. She ran her fingers down the white blaze between his eyes then patted him on the neck.

What a lovely fellow you are, she murmured. The massive animal raised his head then turned to look at her as if in acknowledgement of the compliment.

Surely only a knight of good repute would own an animal this fine. Besides, what choice did she have? To sit, hungry and cold, in the rain until another group came by? And even so, would they take her along? Or would they view her with suspicion and simply another mouth to feed? Or continue to go it alone, with only her dagger for protection?

Again she stroked the horse’s nose before gathering her courage to turn and face the knight.

* * *

Amazed, Warin watched the lad stroke Citadel’s nose. Many would be afraid of a steed that size. You’re familiar with horses? What a boon if Alan could also aid with Citadel.

Aye. His new companion nodded, exposing wet curls plastered to the back of the neck. The ragged hair along the nape appeared as if it had been hacked with a dull knife.

Very well.

Satisfied with the answer, he hoisted the boy up, watching as he confidently wriggled forward to wind grubby fingers tightly into the mane. The leather saddle bags draped over Citadel’s withers impeded the boy’s motion but with a bit of judicious wriggling and squirming, he managed to find a snug perch.

You’re not very heavy, Warin observed, Citadel can carry us both.

The lad nodded and leaned forward over the horse’s neck.

With the aid of a well-placed log, Warin hauled himself up onto the horse’s back. Awkwardly, for his heavy hauberk impeded him, he shifted around to find a comfortable position then adjusted the reins so that he held one in either hand with Alan ensconced in his arms. Normally he would let the lad ride pillion behind him but he appeared to be in dire need of warming.

Ready? he asked and at the answering nod, he nudged Citadel.

They plodded their way through dripping trees, their progress slowed by the road’s muck and mire. Notwithstanding the steady drizzle, the unspoiled forest around them had the crisp hue of early summer, and the fresh fragrance of pine needles and crushed grasses scrubbed the lingering foul odor of death from Warin’s nostrils.

Pray accept my apologies for the lack of saddle. His rueful voice split the silence, startling a thrush into flight. I was a willing participant in a game of chance.

He said no more. Losing the saddle still rankled for when the time came to sell Citadel, a destrier and saddle carried more value than only a horse. He had only himself to blame. Himself and the memories plaguing him that caused him to lose focus, thereby losing the match.

Alan said nothing, merely nodded. They proceeded along in silence for some minutes more until Warin could no longer contain his curiosity.

Tell me, he prodded gently. Tell me what brought you here. He gestured to the forest around them, his motion restricted somewhat by the rein held in his hand. He knew not if Alan would talk to him but airing the horrors that brought the blank stare to the lad’s face was the best way of ridding them.

At first he thought his words had not been heard but then he felt the body held so intimately against him draw in a deep breath in preparation of speech. He tilted his head closer to listen. Odd, was that the scent of lily of the valley? He glanced at the ground around them but couldn’t spot the spiky leaves and telltale stalks of tiny white bells. He shook his head. He must be mistaken.

His companion began to talk, haltingly at first, then stronger as the words tumbled out pell mell across the tongue like whirling dice.

I hail from Caperun Keep in Gloucestershire, the holdings of Hugh Caperun, my father.

The labored voice rasped in Warin’s ears and he had to strain to hear.

We were four, the boy continued after pausing to take a breath and clear his throat. My brother, David and two others, Simon and Baldric, loyal knights from our household. We traveled to Vezelay to meet our father, for it was his decision that our duty as a family was to fight in the Holy Land. We traveled quickly and simply. Lacking coins, we camped mostly, but it was better that way – we lost little time in trying to secure accommodation, and too, food and forage were easy to find. We crossed the Channel easily. He paused to wipe his nose with a tattered sleeve.

Once on French soil we continued on with good pace and all was well until we reached our destination. Here Alan stopped, drawing in several deep breaths in an obvious attempt to steady himself before continuing with his tale.

Aye? prompted Warin, enticed with the story that filled his ears. What passed then?

We had sent a message to our father telling him we were on our way but he never received it. He left without us. His head bowed with grief for a moment before he continued. On hearing that, David decided we would all return home to England. It wasn’t a popular decision with Simon and Baldric, for both had relished the opportunity to find fortune while on Crusade. However, as leader, David’s word was final. That caused some dissent and the camaraderie we had shared began to unravel. Simon stood by his loyalty and it was not him but rather Baldric who became the traitor. The girlish voice became bitter. We awoke one morning to find Baldric gone, along with our horses and a few coins.

Aye, Warin murmured sympathetically, thievery is the curse of the innocent traveler.

Citadel chose that moment to grab a mouthful of grass. They stopped, letting the horse eat several more mouthfuls before Warin jerked back on the reins and urged the animal on.

The rain yet fell, although lightening somewhat and Warin hoped fervently the sun would make a welcome appearance by the morrow. He glanced longingly at the only patch of sky he could see through the trees overhead as if he could will the sun to appear. His companion appeared not to notice and after a while, picked up the threads of the story.

We had no choice but to continue on foot. Soon Simon, overwhelmed with our plight, disappeared. We suspected he joined a monastery out of despair. Now the voice became sad and the gaunt shoulders sagged as if carrying a weighty burden.

But David and I kept on, for what else could we do? We had nothing, only the clothing on our backs. We begged for food where we could and slept by the side of the road. We didn’t even begin to consider how we would find the coinage to buy our way back across the Channel but placed our faith in the Almighty that He would help us. And seemingly, He did, for David encountered a small group of tradesmen willing to take us along as far as Calais and for a time we traveled in safety. But pestilence struck and took first one, then another, then finally David. So great was their dread that I was not even able to see David buried in consecrated ground. Instead, he lies unknown in an unknown land. Alan paused in his narrative for a moment to again wipe his nose, this time in the elbow of his sleeve. Fearing I was also diseased, no sooner had we buried him than I was left behind and the others fled. That is where you found me.

By the Virgin Mary, Warin thought sourly, what wretchedness befell him now to have offered aid to someone carrying pestilence. However, he didn’t voice his apprehension, saying only, You’re safe with me. He frantically wracked his brains, trying to recall if the lad had evidenced any sign of disease.

More than once I’ve rued the day I ever thought to join David.

The embittered voice interrupted Warin’s attempts at recollection and piqued his interest. Oh, how is that?

I’m not entirely truthful on how the story unfolded. It wasn’t the intent of my father that I was to accompany them, but rather I was to remain back in the keep. Instead I followed them and begged them to let me go with them. He rubbed his eyes before continuing, the voice now almost rasped to nothing. It wasn’t a pleasant journey for me. One in our group was not in agreement with me being there and did his utmost to discredit me at every turn.

Warin could feel the deep inhalation of his companion as if he prepared himself to say more. However, no words came forth.

He considered what he had just been told. He could picture it well, a small group, full of hopes soon dashed, and one that must take the blame. He didn’t envy the situation, for it wouldn’t have been easy travelling for the lad.

In truth, Alan’s tale wasn’t that unusual. Treachery and danger occupied the long road to the Holy Land. Many groups had faltered on the way, or even if they reached their destination, would fall to the dangers of active warfare or the parching climate.

Only one thing disturbed him greatly and it had nothing to do with the lad’s story – it was the stirring in his loins.

God’s blood, he had tarried too long without feminine companionship if the contact with the bedraggled young lad riding before him affected him. He knew of men with few scruples who were taken with young boys but he wasn’t one of those. The sensation troubled him.

I only wish to return home, to England. The thin rasping voice disturbed his thoughts, faintly pleading, pathetic in tone.

England isn’t my destination. But you may travel with me for a day or two.

I thank you for your aid. The voice grew a little stronger; the lad sat a little straighter.

Alan, home is where you lay your head, Warin replied briskly. With your sword and shield by your side. Whatever words he could offer wouldn’t lessen the pain of his young passenger but the lad must learn self-reliance to mature and reach manhood.

Alan shook his head. Home is where you lay your heart.

Warin snorted. Lay your heart? What boy would say such a thing?

He surveyed the sodden cap in front of him, just below his chin. Never mind the lad’s odd comment. What in god’s blood should he do with him?

Chapter Two

They prepared to spend the night beneath the shelter of a fir, fringed and wispy with the new growth of spring. The tree reminded Alyna of the evergreens surrounding Caperun Keep which brought forth a surge of homesickness. She pushed it away and concentrated on the present. Fortune had swung her way. She had a companion, one who had rescued her and homesickness served no purpose.

Fallen needles padded the ground and they had to contort themselves to avoid the drips falling through the thick boughs. Warin, mouth twisted in exasperation, finally managed to maneuver