Bending the spine of my chosen book, I sat down to start reading.
For this wasn’t a thriller, but something I wanted to understand more about for a long time – Is Your Body Baby Friendly?
After experiencing an ectopic pregnancy with my husband Steve, now 52, in 2008 and having a further six miscarriages despite trying IVF for a long 11 years, it left me wanting one thing in particular… answers.
Meeting in our early 20s, Steve and I had always been open about wanting a family.
Only, knowing that it had been a difficult journey had made me crave it even more.
‘I’m not with you just to have children, I’m with you for you,’ Steve would say.
I even convinced myself that being a mum wasn’t for me.
‘I could have nice flashy cars and dream holidays, I could do what I want when I want,’ I’d repeat to my mum Vicki, sister Paige and dad Phil.
Only, that wasn’t what I desired – it was just a constant lie that I told myself.
