I probably should have realised that I was gay a little bit sooner than I did.
I was obsessed with the singer Cheryl, known at the time as Cheryl Cole. I was a big Girls Aloud fan, but Cheryl was special to me. Back then, I thought she was just someone I looked up to, someone to be interested in outside of football. I liked her music, her clothes, her whole vibe.
Was it a crush? Was it my sexual awakening? Was
