A Heart Full of Love

By Kathleen Fuller

Ellie’s mother hasn’t stopped meddling in her personal life since Ellie lost her sight—and she’s taken it up a notch now that Ellie’s pregnant. When Ellie gives birth to twins, her mother insists on moving in to care for them. But when her mother’s behavior becomes unbearable, Ellie is forced to take a stand . . . and finally find out why Mamm can’t let go.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Open Road Integrated Media
• Release date: Feb 17, 2015
• ISBN: 9780718001896

Kathleen Fuller

With over two million copies sold, Kathleen Fuller is the USA TODAY bestselling author of several bestselling novels, including the Hearts of Middlefield novels, the Middlefield Family novels, the Amish of Birch Creek series, and the Amish Letters series as well as a middle-grade Amish series, the Mysteries of Middlefield. Visit her online at KathleenFuller.com; Instagram: @kf_booksandhooks; Facebook: @WriterKathleenFuller; X: @TheKatJam.

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CHAPTER ONE

PARADISE, PENNSYLVANIA

Are you ready for this?

Ellie Miller turned her head toward her husband Christopher’s, concerned voice. Their horse, Clyde, whinnied and pranced a bit in his buggy harness, signaling his eagerness to be on his way instead of waiting in their driveway. Ellie put her hand over her swollen abdomen. Do I have a choice?

She felt Chris take her hand. We could wait and let it be a surprise.

"I don’t think Mamm would appreciate that. She wasn’t exactly thrilled when we told her we were expecting."

That’s because she worries too much.

And you don’t think she’ll be worried about this? She touched her belly again. She remembered her mother’s tone of voice when she’d announced that she and Chris were having a baby. How on earth will you manage? Those were the first words out of her mouth. Not I’m so happy for you, or "I’m going to be a grossmutter!" Had she even congratulated them on the pregnancy? Ellie couldn’t remember.

Chris squeezed her hand before releasing it. "We can’t control how your mamm reacts. He kissed her cheek, the softness of his beard tickling her skin. But we can show her how happy and blessed we are."

She smiled. "Danki for reminding me."

During their buggy ride to her parents’ house, Ellie’s mind wandered. Despite her husband’s reassurance, she couldn’t stem her growing anxiety. She and Chris had been married for two years now, and they had fallen into a comfortable routine, with Chris working construction jobs in and around Paradise while she had continued her jelly-making business, Ellie’s Jellies, which she had put on hold recently. She had never been so happy. When she discovered she was expecting, she could barely contain her joy.

Then she had given Mamm the news. Ellie had expected some reservations from her. Since the car accident that had taken Ellie’s sight eight years ago, she’d had to prove to her mother that she was capable. She created her own business. She married the most wonderful man in Paradise. She was going to be a mother. Yet with a few words, her mamm could make her feel like that inept young woman who wondered if she would ever deal with her blindness, much less accept it.

Ellie clasped her hands together, tamping down her nervousness. Chris was right. She wasn’t in control of her mother’s reactions or feelings. She wasn’t in control of anything. God was.

A short time later they arrived at her parents’ house. Ellie stayed in the buggy as Chris settled Clyde in the barn, and then she heard the familiar crunch of his boots on the gravel drive as he came back to assist her. When his hand touched hers, she gripped it as he helped her step down to the ground.

She entwined her fingers with his, the strength of his nearness giving her the courage she needed to walk to the house. Ellie knew her father would be supportive when they told him the news. Maybe Mamm would surprise her and be excited too.

You’re cutting off my circulation, Chris said to her, his tone half joking.

Sorry. She loosened her grip on his hand as they ascended the porch steps. Before they reached the top, Ellie heard the soft squeak of the screen door opening.

Ellie!

Her mother’s shrill, worried voice made Ellie wince. She flinched when Mamm put her hands on her shoulders.

You look tired. I knew we should have taken supper over to you instead of Chris bringing you here, she said.

"Hello to you, too, Mamm." After the accident her mother had been overly protective. Ellie had resented it at first, wanting her independence and working to achieve it. Eventually Mamm had realized Ellie could be independent. But now it was as if they were going back in time, when her mother was filled with doubts and worry. When she didn’t believe Ellie was capable of anything.

"Let them get in the haus, Edna, before you start hovering." Her father’s voice came from the direction of the doorway.

Mamm released Ellie’s shoulders and stepped aside. Chris still held Ellie’s hand as they walked through the front door. The tangy scent of stuffed cabbage mingled with the buttery aroma of fresh, cooked corn made her stomach rumble. Lately she’d been constantly hungry. As Chris liked to remind her, she was eating for two.

Not anymore . . .

"Smells appeditlich, Edna." Chris released Ellie’s hand.

Ellie, you have dark circles under your eyes. Ignoring Chris’s compliment, Mamm stood in front of her so close that Ellie could feel her warm breath against her face. Christopher, you need to make sure she’s getting her rest.

He is, Ellie said.

And she shouldn’t be out this late at night.

It’s not even seven o’clock. Ellie searched for her mother’s hand and took it. Everything is fine. You don’t need to worry.

That’s what I’ve been trying to tell her, Daed said. Edna, she looks healthy to me. Stop borrowing trouble.

Her mother didn’t say anything, and Ellie could feel her intense gaze. "A mother knows her dochder, she said. Something is going on."

"Ellie, didn’t you say you were hungerich?" Chris said quickly.

Starving, she said with a nod, grateful for her husband’s ability to step in when she needed him to.

But—

You heard them, Edna. Daed came up on the other side of Ellie. They’re hungry and so am I. Let’s eat.

They all went to the kitchen, but Ellie could still sense her mother’s scrutiny, imagining the mix of concern and frustration on her face as she tried to puzzle out what was going on. She should have known her mother would suspect something.

As she sat down at the table, she felt a movement in her belly. Oh, she blurted, the strong kick taking her off guard.

What? Her mother was immediately at her side. What happened?

Just the baby . . . She felt Chris squeeze her shoulder. She took a deep breath. Or the other one.

The room grew silent. After a long pause, her mother finally spoke. What did you say?

Ellie turned her face toward Mamm. Christopher and I are having twins.

Neither of her parents said anything. As the silence lengthened, she felt a tightening in her chest. She expected her mother to be upset, but her father’s silence surprised her. She covered Chris’s hands with hers.

Twins? her father said at last.

Ellie swallowed and nodded.

He burst into laughter. "Two bopplis? That’s wonderful news!"

Ephraim, how can you say that? Ellie heard the creak of a kitchen chair as her mother plopped down on it. Twins? How will she ever manage?

Ellie couldn’t help but frown, her mother’s words echoing her own thoughts when her midwife, Barbara, had told her she suspected Ellie was carrying twins. Yet when Ellie had told Chris, he’d been ecstatic, his enthusiasm and confidence bolstering hers. But as usual, her mother’s words nicked at her, and those feelings of doubt crept back in.

She’ll be fine, Daed said, chuckling again. Twins. Who would have thought? Ellie heard him slap Chris on the back. "Congratulations, sohn. Now let’s eat."

Ephraim—

It’s time to eat. Her father’s tone had turned stern.

Ellie heard her mother rise and mumble something unintelligible under her breath. Chris patted Ellie’s shoulder and sat down next to her. See, he whispered, that wasn’t so bad.

She nodded, even though she disagreed with him. During the meal her mother didn’t say anything, letting Chris and her father do most of the talking. Ellie tried to focus on the delicious food, but her earlier, ravenous appetite had disappeared. Why couldn’t her mother be happy for them? They should be celebrating. Instead, Ellie just wanted to go home.

After supper, she halfheartedly offered to help with the dishes, knowing her mother would refuse. Would she have to prove herself all over again? How could she fight both her doubts and her mother’s?

When Ellie and Chris reached home, he pulled the buggy to a stop but didn’t get out. Don’t let your mother get to you.

I’m not. She frowned. Well, I’m trying not to.

"You’re going to be a great mother. I truly believe that. Your mamm will see that too." He patted her knee and jumped out of the buggy.

Ellie touched her belly as the twins moved around inside. She’d already come to notice that one of the babies was more active than the other. From your mouth to God’s ears, she whispered, then said a silent prayer, asking the Lord to help her get through the next few weeks.

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Three weeks later Ellie and her mother were spending the early

Reviews for A Heart Full of Love

[jenniferrobb · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

This is probably about a 3.5 for me. Rating shown may differ if site doesn't have half star ratings.It was nice to have an Amish fiction book that didn't revolve around the "running around" time and deciding whether to join the church and romance. This book contains 4 novellas that each feature an Amish family expecting or having a baby. "In His Father's Arms" by Beth Wiseman: a young couple's first child is born with Down's Syndrome. Both parents struggle with fears and it affects their marriage. I kind of wished they'd talked out their fears earlier."A Son for Always" by Amy Clipston: Carolyn and Joshua are having their first child together, but Carolyn has an older son that has a different father. Though Joshua would rather have her home full-time (and Carolyn seems to want that too), Carolyn struggles with thinking she has to provide for her older son's future because Joshua might not accept him or treat him as his own. Again, if the couple would have sat down an aired their thoughts and fears to each other sooner..."A Heart Full of Love" by Kathleen Fuller: A woman blinded in an accident gives birth to twins and her mother, for reasons of her own, feels overprotective of her granddaughters--so much so that she assumes much of the mothering role that should be her daughter's. It's a good lesson that sometimes the way one generation deals with an event isn't the best way to deal with it."An Unexpected Blessing" by Vannetta Chapman: Deals with pregnancy in your 40s. One of the themes is change. Letting go of dreams you have for one of your children (David), embracing newer ways when they make logical sense (the birthing center), etc.

[maydacat_1 · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

These four novellas all deal with a new birth. Each story deals with some kind of problem. Whether it is a past tragedy, a secret long hidden, a physical disability, an age-related challenge, a mistake that’s hard to forgive, or a lack of trust, all the main characters in these stories have something to overcome. It is a well written collection, and though readers are likely to have a favorite author or story, all are interesting.

[lindz2012 · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

In His Father’s Arms by Beth Wiseman: This is a story about a couple that struggles with a baby with Down syndrome. What they do not know if how to deal with it. Ruth Anne finds out the truth about her best friend first pregnancy. Ruth Anne can not understand why her best friend is acting really strange around her and her baby boy.

Levi is also struggling to deal with his little boy illness. He knows his little cousin died from this illness. He afraid that is son will be taken from him. Do learn to deal with their little boy medical issues and learn to trust God?

A Son for Always by Amy Clipston: Carolyn is happy to know that she is a pregnant with her and Joshua first child together. She worried that she will have to keep her job and financially secure Ben's future.

Joshua seems to want to let Carolyn that she can stop working at the hotel. Carolyn is still having doubts that Joshua will help her with Ben future. Even though, Joshua has adopted Ben and wanted Ben to have his last name.

Carolyn needs a sign that Joshua will treat her son Ben as his own. She gets that sign, but I do not want to tell you when or how. That would be giving the ending away.

A Heart Full of Love by Kathleen Fuller: Ellie is expecting her first child with her husband. Though when she gives birth to twins. Her mother decides that will take care of the twins and keep them safe. In doing so, she will not let Ellie bond with her daughters.

What is Ellie's mother dealing with that she won't let Ellie take care of her own daughters. Ellie knows she will need help with her daughters. Ellie wants time with her daughters and takes care of them.

Ellie starts to have questions about what happen with a girl named Rachel. She goes over to her parents house and to find the answers. What a sweet ending his story has.

An Unexpected Blessing by Vannetta Chapman: Etta finds out that she is expecting once again. She as a frighting labor. She seems happy with her new little one. She is worried about her overgrown son, David and wants her to return.

Her other children are overjoyed for her and their dad. They help to give her the crib that was made be their dad. They get a surprise when their one son returns. He gets a surprise as well.

[alekee_1 · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

The first story by Beth Wiseman will make your heart ache, to have an imperfect child is so very hard. All that anticipation looking forward to the birth, and then the heartache of not knowing what to do, or how to cope, and it is the same feeling no matter which culture we live in?That is what Ruth Anne and Levi must come to terms with, to be there for their child and each other. As we read along we hope they will find their way, and be there for each other.Carolyn and Joshua are about to welcome a new addition to their new family. Joshua has now adopted Ben, but Carolyn is worried, and has deep fears that once the new little one comes, Joshua won’t feel the same about Ben. How can she give up her income and feel secure that her child will be taken care of? The power of prayer, she just needs to lean on her faith, but can she?Kathleen Fuller’s novella, will bring tears to your eyes, so much tragedy in their past. Elle has over come most of the problems she has faced with her blindness, and now she a Chris are expecting their first baby. What surprises they are in for, and trying to keep her mother from taking over because of her handicap, you are going to love how Chris handles her.The final novella is by Vannetta Chapman and at 42 Etta has a new baby, but is yearning for the return of her son David. Loved how God has placed the love of each child on these parents hearts, even if the rules of their religion is contrary to how they feel.These stories will warm your heart, and as you can tell by the title, there is a new baby involved. You can read one in a sitting, but hard to stop at one. Enjoy!I received this book through Net Galley and the Publisher Thomas Nelson, and was not required to give a positive review.

[kris_anderson-1 · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

An Amish Cradle is a wonderful collection of stories. It contains four stories by four different authors. The books deal with four expectant couples and how they deal with a pregnancy or child that is not what they expected. This is a lovely collection of Amish Christian fiction by some of the best authors (Beth Wiseman, Amy Clipston, Kathleen Fuller, and Vanetta Chapman). In His Father’s Arms (by Beth Wiseman) Ruth Anne and Levi deal with having a son who has Down’s syndrome. A Son for Always by Amy Clipston has Carolyn and Joshua Glick dealing with having their first child together while Carolyn still deals with old feelings for having a child out of wedlock sixteen years previously. In A Heart Full of Love (by Kathleen Fuller) Ellie and Christopher Miller will have to handle having twin’s with Ellie’s blindness and her very controlling mother. The last book An Unexpected Blessing (by Vanetta Chapman) Etta and Mose Bontrager will deal with having another child late in their lives when they least expected it as well as missing one of their children who is no longer at home (nor have they heard from him recently). Each couple’s faith will be tested as they learn to accept God’s will. I loved all the stories in the book and look forward to reading more books by these wonderful authors. Happy Reading! I received a complimentary copy of this book from NetGalley/Publisher in exchange for an honest review.